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Born in Kentucky, trapped in Kentucky, and still residing in Kentucky. I am blissfully single, have no children, love dogs, and write because it's what I do. The only things I like as much are power tools.
I never know what to say in a biography. The past is the past and should probably stay where you left it. Born the youngest of eight kids, I still managed to grow up alone for the most part. I was so much younger than my brothers and sisters. Most of my strong bonds are with my older nieces and nephews because they are closer to my age.
Death has always been one of the specters in my life. I lost my first brother in 1979 in a tragic accident. I lost my second brother in 1996 from brain/spinal cancer. I lost my father in 1999 from incompetence. Then, I lost my nephew in 2005 from osteosarcoma.
And these are only the deaths that nearly killed me, not the including the uncles, aunts and cousins that died on the way to where I am now. But all you can do in life is get back up. Each time you do, someone or something will knock you down again. That's the way it is, you just get use to it.
I suffer from recurrent depression but I am still not ready to be medicated. I'll survive without. Some part of me needs to know that what I feel is real and not blunted by pharmacuticals.
In my own way, I've made peace with my depressions. I am managing to live my life. I am no longer suicidal. I don't know what the answer is but I know that suicide is not what I'm looking for so until I just stop breathing, I'll be here.
To aid that cause, I don't drink because I'd never stop. I don't take drugs because I'm weak and if it helped, I'd never quit. I gave up on relationships because I'm damaged and can't make that final connection that people seem to need from me.
I resent my mother but I learning to let that anger go. What good does it do me? She won't ever stop being the familiar monster that she is. I can't change her so all I have is me.
I have good friends. I have dogs to add some silly in my life. Books to help me think. WRiting to help me breath. It's enough, at least for now.
Ah...now you know more than you wanted to know about me. My writing is what I love, it's what I do. It's not perfect but it's mine. It's one of the few things I'm thankful for.
Tirzah
TirzahLaughs's Genres: Poetry, Horror, Thriller, Comedy, Action-Adventure
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