There is no end to this war inside of me

Fighting between Him or him

Not knowing which one to choose,

To kiss,

To love,

To hold,

To become immense and one with

Feeling lost and unknown

Troubled

A life decision

A new year's resolution

An ending, no, a beginning

He is my first or maybe my second waiting to be my last

He got on his knees

Said baby please, be mine

I said no I needed time

Time to heal

Time to find myself

I broke his heart, ended his start

He tried, I cried

We fell apart

Every day I mourn

I mourn for the death of our relationship

The loss of connection and my protection

Should I find him or should I stay

A part of me says yeah and a part of me says nay

If he says no my soul may die without a goodbye

It is just my conscience, it is a feeling

A feeling called love

I don't love him, or maybe I do

Is it a love of passion or a love of hate?

Is it the love of a pity date?

Love is infinite

I am not ready for this heart to heart feeling

All these accusations, my anticipation

It just doesn't mix

Should I find him or not?

After all......

He tried, I cried,

We fell apart