Growing up in a cold world when things get hotter everyday

You began to gain a different perception upon life

When what you fear the most is what prevents you from making life long decisions

Deciding to be happy or sad, right or wrong and stuck between two and not finding out the cause

My fear the most is exceptance and to be treated equally despised my sexuality or mentality

My sexual preference leads me in a mix where i commit a sin and my heart faces a dilemma

How could something that feels so right be wrong?

How can I say I love the man above but is listening to the man below?

Should i live my life my way and when i die on judgement day god say turn around hell is that way!

My beliefs for my god has nothing to do with my beliefs of my own happiness

Should i saddle for a man and live may life in pain or go own to continue to live my way

So now my fears made me see my sins and i start to question my preference

They say you learn from your mistakes

Now 17 i fear more mistakes

And as i stand before judgement day i say" I live my life and now my actions has a reaction but in all;the greatest mistakes you can ever make in life is to be continually FEARING you can make one

So now my fear is only my outcome