I have so much inside

and as I try to hide and disguise my pain

I find achievements lost in sadness gained

I feel like I'm going insane as my chest sinks I feel I can't breathe

and at times I think my heart stops beating

So much love to give but little to none receiving'¦

I keep misleading my heart into thoughts of promise

 when all that's there is an emptiness...

that takes over who I am

All I want or better said all I believe that I need is a loving man

A man that will love me and take me into his arms

and make me feel like I'm alive

And even as I strive to achieve greatness on my own

I realize that even if I did it wouldn't mean much

because in this struggle I'm by myself

What good is a trophy you've earned if no one but you

can see it up on that shelf

And as no one chooses to decide...

for the options offered by loving me

I wonder why it is that no man can truly see

The beauty that a commitment to me... can bring

Sometimes'¦I wish that I could sing... but if I sang

As the history of my soul rang...

it would be to the melody of another sad love song

Talking about how I had it but it didn't have me

How I wanted what didn't want me

How I gave to what didn't give to me

and how I loved someone that just didn't love me

I'm tired

I feel that as my time on this earth expires

I'll have less to smile about when my time comes

The only joy I can find is in my 2 sons

and that should be more than enough

but for some reason its not

It seems like I'm the one that love forgot

When all that is sought'¦is a little understanding

Life becomes that much more demanding

And comprehending my misfortune

becomes more and more impossible

And less achievable

On this ballroom floor competition called life

I feel like I'm the dancer that's invisible

And that's too bad cuz I got some good moves

And if anyone chose to dance to my groove

I know I could take the title

But the fact that I remain unseen and unfound

Makes me idle

And my feet can't move to the melody of happiness

Cuz I can't dance alone

And I can't condone the fact that those around me

gracefully flowing across the floor

Don't have any moves that are better than mine but

they're the ones taking home the awards and trophies

And my spirit bleeds

Because I can't prove myself on this ballroom floor within what's now become my twilight zone

Because even though I'm the best out of all of these dancers...

I just can't dance alone

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