Watching the screen with standard color wheel
Slightly warped on the top
Plays the bible of your youth
And sometimes now
Think of the days of the week
And how it's only been...
Since Wednesday.
Thursday passes in a back seat
Friday on the bed of roses
With thorns in your back
Now Saturday and you still can't think
You're hoping the screen will tell you
To let it all out...
It's okay.
Turn to the second screen.
The warmth of electronics on your lap
As you try to spit it out.
Life filled with ellipses
Because you just can't say it...
Oh, the irony for it all
"I miss you," you say.
"But I've always been here," he says,
Uncertainty
You open your eyes.
Who... what....?
Confusion as you look into his eyes
You're pretty sure that wasn't
Who you were kissing a few days ago
"Hmmm, I need a shower," you think
But hot water can't wash away your guilt
Soap? Rather. Rinse. Repeat.
Doesn't help.
Grab a notebook and a pen and flow.
The ink is stuck?
No, just you are.
Fingers tapping on a keyboard?
Still doesn't work.
Your passion in overdrive
With no outlet
Spontaneous combustion to the fullest extent.
You're overheating.
"Take my temperature, I think I'm fainting."
You should tell him.
But....
An ellipse to end it all
Because you just can't keep up...


PART II

Oh, but you're my hunny bear
And I'm your gummi bear
The bestest gummi bear, you tell me
Am I really?
I suppose you wouldn't tell me that
If you knew what went on
Behind closed doors
Because after three weeks
I've already messed it all up
Went back to familiar grounds
And toyed with you
When you touch me,
I flinch
Look at me
And I wonder,
"Who the hell is looking at me?"
Your hands are always cold
You kiss me too hard
Not the only thing...
As I lay in your bed
I'm thinking I should tell you
But I blindly move along
Because I can't think of anything else to do
Can't seem to cry yet
Can't find the right song
Or movie or piece of literature
Just waiting for it to heal itself
When I know it won't

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