At first there was just pain
My days and through out the nights
I forgot myself and let go
Numb and dead ' all dark no light

I wanted to live ' feel alive
Enjoy the different emotions for real
What's hurt, what's tears ' can I know
Get back my life, action and zeal

Such confusion such devastation
Can't go on ' but can't stop so
My body ' soulless ' stranded
Got to get out ' drop out ' just go!

I shudder and get scared
My vulnerability becomes my end
The fear grows ' makes me weak
On just my inner voice could I depend?

My dream against my hope
My fall against my awakening
Just one dose of harsh reality
The fight the struggle becoming maddening

No matter how I pretended
Couldn't make it work for me
The eyes question the look stares
Its time for ME to be!

Bounded chains disappeared
When I knew and I accepted
I bent and I bowed
With my life I now reflected

Giving myself away like that
Felt good, it was there to last
Real feelings of life and emotions
All the relief and ecstasy in my soul encast

My dead eyes could speak
My senseless motions no more astray
Just bow ' have faith ' be strong
That's what I learnt ' what I'll portray


But that's all I thought
I felt I knew that's the way
But life has it pricks
The death silently won't go away

So the struggle goes on and on
I live and then I die
Worship, mysticism or insanity
Death comes as life goes by

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