this morning
i caught a glimpse of the sun
lingering on the horizon
it was
orange
 and
red.
'¦.. and pink my daughter said
 
 
today I saw god in the Moses bush
 
but he didn't talk to me
   he must be pissed
or
   he just doesN'T care
 
maybe he's pissed
because
eve chose to listen to the snake
over him?
----but that 'ole snake did have a nice tongue
who can blame her?
 
do you think he's pissed
that she ate the apple
from the tree of knowledge
     of good and evil
and
   then she knew?
 
that her god lied to her?
 
But'¦..
'¦.. under it all.
we're
      '¦'¦STILL'¦..
'¦'¦'¦'¦'¦'¦'¦'¦'¦ANIMALS
 
really, nice god. 
that the fall of humanity
should happen
in the first generation
 
 "Amor Fati"
                "Love Your Fate", which is in fact your life."
      Nietzsche
 
 
that tree.  The one I've been watching.
today is the most brilliant it's been
the leaves are see-through-brilliant orange
tomorrow,
and the next day,
'¦..the leaves will let go
'¦'¦'¦.give up
'¦..and fall to the ground
'¦'¦'¦.leaving the tree naked
 
 
that man who pissed me off this morning.  That man that who was behind me.  The one that laid on his horn and tried to run me off the road because he wanted to get in front of me so he could turn right in 3 blocks'¦'¦I wanted to jump through my windshield, into the back of his car, crawl through his car and knock the fuck out of him! 
 
but I didn't.
i took some deep breaths and kept on going. 
 
it's probably a good thing that those thoughts are fleeting; a good thing that I never act on those feelings.
 
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
 
i hate crap that happens on the road.
all the little tiffs
'¦'¦..the angry horn honks
'¦'¦'¦'¦fingers flung up in the heat of the moment (real classy)
'¦'¦..the red, distorted faces cussing at other drivers
        (that one actually, really amuses me ' people look so ugly and foolish)
 
for me,
after all,
i like to have the last word
  and
     i
      can't
         have
             the
                 last
                     word
                when I'm driving in my car   
            the most I can do
        is honk my horn
   it's my big
       ----"fuck you"
 
 
and while I'm on this subject
i despise when I let someone over
and they don't have the courtesy to wave
-------then.  I wish I had a pellet gun
     ----------bang, bang. bang, bang, bang!
           ----------until they wave their hands
     ----------in surrender
-------there! 
..i made them wave!!!
 
 
i couldn't sleep last night
poetry kept popping into my head
'¦'¦some really good stuff
'¦'¦'¦i thought
 
wake-poetry
    that's a good one ' "mental note" - remember it!
      sleep
  snore
      sleep
wake-poetry
    that's a good one---don't forget.  I just know I'm gonna forget!
      sleep
         sleep
wake-poetry
    you get the idea.
            today,
'¦'¦'¦.I'¦'¦..FORGOT.
 
 
did I ever mention
that when people
'¦.know things
'¦'¦..i do not
and can do things
'¦'¦.i can't
it is extremely sexy??
'¦'¦.a major turn-on??
and it's intensified
'¦'¦.if they are sexy already??
 
i think I mentioned it before
but I had to again
because.  because.  because
'¦..only i know why.........
 
 
 
cher plays at full blast
'¦'¦.."if I could turn back time"
and forces eyes open
'¦'¦..that's the point ya know!
 
stumbles to the shower
turns handle
dodging
'¦..the cold water
 
steps to the sink
squeezing toothpaste
'¦.onto the brush
'¦'¦..scrub, scrub, scrub
'¦'¦'¦'¦..the grit and grime away
spitting a glob of gook into the sink
'¦'¦watching as it twist down the drain.
 
shirt over head
'¦..and onto the floor
panties to ankles
'¦..KICKed
across the floor
 
opens the door
stepping into the stream of hot water
      OUCH!! 
           too HOT!!!
turns the handle
    just right
 
picks up the tiny piece of soap
thinks'¦.
     buy more soap!
       I have gel soap
         10 bottles of it.
            I hate gel soap
               WHY do I own at least 10 bottles of it?
      '¦'¦'¦because it smells good
 
soap slips from hands
'¦.bends
'¦'¦..jabs nail into it
'¦.and picks it up
rubs slowly across body
'¦.round and round
'¦'¦up and down
creating soapy bubbles
'¦..that slip
and
'¦..slide
'¦'¦..down
'¦'¦'¦'¦.with the water
 
transporting
'¦.dirt
'¦'¦'¦..into the bowels of the earth
'¦..yeah, that's right. 
that would be the sewer
 
 
my boss just asked me a question
to which I gave the correct answer
which I suppose he didn't want to hear
   because,
       he said
             "whatever"
 
 
i'm eating my morning cup of ice
waiting for my coffee and oatmeal to cool
and I have my heater on
because
'¦'¦..the ice makes me cold
 
but now,
this is a memory
 
 
I hate ' hate ' hate - when things change
when there is no reason for them to change. 
don't get me wrong, change can be good
      '¦.but not when it's for stupid reasons. 
it's so frustrating. 
and I never know what to do. 
and it makes me crabby.
so fuck it.    
 
 
sometimes I cuss like a sailor. 
i really like the word fuck. 
it's like
an exclamation point!!
at then end of my'¦..
'¦'¦.anger
'¦'¦'¦happiness
'¦'¦.frustration
'¦'¦'¦silliness
'¦...etcetera
 
 
i like that hard skin
that forms on the top of oatmeal
after it sits for
awhile
 
 
i feel creative
when I'm sad
 
 
yummmm
'¦..water melon
'¦'¦'¦..bubble gum

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