I am dieing
Slowly my mind falls, decays
Soon there will be little left
I do not know how to make it stop
Others see it but they do not know what it is
They misunderstand and misinterpret, they see only the surface, no deeper
I am rotting, the slow decay of sin has caught up with me once again
And has driven me to despair
My hope fades, but it does not die, it will not die
It's immortality pains me
It will leap again at the slightest sign
Only to fall all the farther
My options are few and experience shows that there is no smart choice
For nothing endures,
everything fades, everything dies, everything rots
Anything I do will fail, whether it be sooner or later matters not
Whatever my choice is I will not maintain it, I will fail
I will slip and fall
Always deeper than before, always harder than before, always more painfully than before
But I never hit the bottom, there is always farther to fall
He will not let my reach the bottom
but They are always driving me closer to it, always pushing me
He will not let me die and They will not let me live
I am forever torn between the two
Unable to advance, unable to give up, always retreating, Always giving in

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