A new born insomniac awoken from a dream
The delusion has diminished leaving the reality clear
Chains attached securely and permitting no escape
Realisation dawns in revelation of a grave mistake
The cul-de-sac alley of greyness abounds
Hemmed in on three sides, the fourth a barrier of expectancy
Above in the sky, the storm clouds weep their tears to the ground
Brooding embodiment of what life has become
So many years passed since being born into this world
Destiny back then a mere open book of blank pages
While the years drifted by serenely with the empty spaces being filled
Unaware all along of being herded in just one direction
Links of the imprisonment inexorably growing day by day
Weighing down the demeanour, taming the spirit that was so free
How was this path reached when no map was apparent ?
When did destiny become the gaoler that snuffs out ideals ?
Who is it that holds the key to the bonds now so constricting ?
Why did it take so long for the eyes to defeat the blindness ?
Searching for the answers in the cold stone of entrapment
Feeling the panic rising just as a rabbit stunned in the spotlight
Knowing all too well that this is not the way that fate should be leading
Recognising an alienation to all that seems real
Wondering if it's too late to rescue the very last strands of sanity
Hearing dissenting voices as a rising chorus echoing inside the head
Chaotic abstracts of advice that drone 'This is the only way'
Fingers gouge the temples, cold sweat burning all the skin
Strains of deliria poisoning a mind already in overdrive
Screams piercing the darkness as normality is smashed to a thousand splinters
Rotating blur of compunction force the knees to buckle in kind
Pushing away the false smiling faces
Compendium of revulsion searching for the exit to the light
Squirming in terror midst a morass of tempered ambivalence
Vomiting fear, spitting venom in all directions
Trembling hands begging forgiveness for deeds not committed
Scratching wildly at the links that form the tether to this predicament
Disfunctional apathy creating inhuman strength
The bonds snap abruptly in a liberating euphoria
Nails ripped to shreds in the scrambling flight out from the cell
Body battered and bruised as the ascent is finally complete
Bathed in a new found sunlight for now the promise can be seen once more
A child-like figure weeps for the familiar ideal
That wasn't easy, it took courage to attain
But it is nothing compared to that required for the next step
Look down at the imploring hands left behind
Of the licentious smiles that leeched every drop of your ambition
What will you do now ?
That's a vicious and wide world out there before you
Which way are you going to jump ?
Be honest, you thought you'd done the hard part
Have you the stomach to carry this through in earnest ?
Are you prepared to rage against humanity ?
Be all that you were meant to be ?
Or will you return to mediocrity ?
Keep your shoulder hard to the grind ?
Live with the tears you know so well as a slave to the system ?
It's nobody's choice but yours
Do you now understand ?

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