You are not worth it,
The agony and pain.
Today it hit me,
The thought of everything
You have done so far
Reviles me,
It sickens me.
I still care about you,
Even love you,
But you did this to me
And that can't change.
I can't know
What the future may hold,
But I laugh now,
I grin,
I feel slightly insane,
Laughing away the pain.
But I've had fits
Of uncontrollable mirth,
I don't know why,
But with all you have done,
You aren't worth my pain,
My sadness won't do anything,
So in glee I stand.

I must be going mad,
I feel so strangely glad,
Happy, grinning,
Laughing for no reason at all.
Fits of laughing
Overwhelm me,
I don't have a reason,
I don't need one.
I am just me,
And that is all I need.

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