The title of this book is from Isaiah, and also it also corresponds to human relationships.

Freedom. It means first that no one may infringe on anyone's rights. And second it means that those who do are judged. Third it means that then everyone is accountable. Because if I can do whatever I want, then do you know what? I am responsible.
Going on there is something that triumphs over freewill. I mean in a good way. I mean in a way that fulfills it and keeps it going. It is destiny.
And a word about destiny. If my life regarding freewill is not going the way I want it to. Then I have further freewill (this is the fulfillment). And what is that further freewill? That then, that thing that I want and am not getting. If by any means my freewill is not paying out and I am not satisfied. That I can do something about it. Which is this: I can if I want to, and with no force, control, or manipulation: I can choose to actually go for the thing that I want. Now not to get confusing but this also might take some planning. But as soon as I choose to follow my destiny, what I have done is take my own life into my hands.
Now going on here....What happens is that freewill still exists. Because if my destiny doesn't work out the way I want it to; I can still choose to live any way I want to, which is according to also not infringing on other's freewill.
And not to get confusing but do you know what this is? This is actually the framework in which I always get what I want.
Going on, from here there are many viewpoints and stances. But also there is something which triumphs here even over destiny. It is that at some point, I will meet the truth.
And for those who do not believe that and or feel powerless; I only want to say this about what I am trying to say here: that as soon as I consider that- I again am in the position to perfect my freewill. And choose and do what I want.
The catch? Whether I think I can or I think I can't; according to me (Which is what everyone wants right? [having their life be according to them]) I still am walking in the direction of my own freewill. Which means that in a good way; "I can."
Now whether anyone applies themselves is their own business.

'A manuscript of existence 2/22/07'�
I woke up sometime in the 80's. I lived in Santa Rosa California. Really beautiful country. Honestly I love San Diego, but I wouldn't mind spending time up there. Well I was in the park which was across from my street. It was parallel to my street, but down the cul-de-sac which was across my house. The park was big. It went for like three big blocks. It had a creek through the middle of it, and a park with slides and sand on both ends. Also there was another park if you kept going past the one farthest away from my house which was huge. I was at the one right across my house, and I was with one of my friends. And this was before fourth grade, I don't know how much earlier. And there were some other bigger kids there at the time. And one of them pushed my friend down or hit him, or both. And then I stood up for him, and right then Jesus came to me. He told me to let him beat me up. And I did. I remember taking some shots. And I remember thinking 'This is taking a long time.'� And then after that I fell, and it was over. I think that I stayed in it, as long as I could, in the Spirit. And also I don't remember having any pain, or any marks. And I was taking shots from his knee, and also face shots. When I have tried to remember that I can see Jesus across on the other side of the creek which also went parallel to my street and the park.

Well I had gone to church before that, and I think heard some Bible stories, but I think that was the first time I met Jesus.

Well my dad died some time later. I was nine when he died. It was around my sister's birthday. About at the end of the school year. He was a coke addict. I heard from my grandpa that he had done drugs since he was 14. And from my mom that the first time she saw him do coke was after they were married. Well he had been to rehab twice already. And it was paid for by his company for 30 days each time. Well, we had moved away from that house by the park, but we were still in Santa Rosa.

He had bought a house. And my parents were going to go on a cruise, my dad had just been accepted into the president's club in Xerox where he worked. He fixed copy machines. Well, he decided to coke again. And he didn't want to go into rehab because he would have lost his job. They would have let him go to rehab again I think, but he would have been fired, this third time. My mom took us out of school, and we went to Southern California. My dad stayed up there. They found him on Father's day.

I had wanted to call him. My mom says that she wasn't leaving him, but that we couldn't be there.

Well we hadn't been able to get a hold of him, that Father's day. Then as we were going to my mom's dads that day, my mom made a comment about calling my dad. And I heard God tell me that we weren't going to be able to talk to him because he was dead. Well I didn't freak out or anything like that. I had a peace. Well, we came to find out that he had died. I think that they dated his death before Father's day, but that is when he was found.

So we moved to Southern California. I went to a Christian School starting in sixth grade.

I remember that at the end of the year in fifth grade that I told some people and they started laughing at me. Also I didn't really want to go either. My mom's friend, and my youth pastor, and she was also our roommate had the idea. And she really offended. I got treated with false comfort. Which is like what is the word? Patronizing? I had like this star chart for doing my chores. And I had this feeling where like she wanted me to be like that patronized boy who grows up without being a man. And I don't mean to be like a lumberjack or anything like that. But the other wing is not good either. Do you know what I mean? Like short corduroy shorts before they were in style, that were really short and those shirts with an alligator on the breast.
When I went into sixth grade it was like I wanted to be a new person because I wasn't very popular in fifth grade. I don't know why. Maybe because I was smart and obedient. I had seen this show where a family of girls moved and the mom said that now they got to start all over again and be whoever they wanted to. I tried that. It didn't work. I even tried to make up my own cursive handwriting. I think that was the start of me not wanting to do what everyone else did.

In seventh grade I started to fall off of the world. In my youth group at some point around this time, I met someone who wasn't very straight. At the beach with my youth group, I needed someone to go to the water with me. I asked my mom, but the church had like rules to make sure that the parents were watching people. So it got told to me that I should go with this other kid. I wanted to boogey board. Then we got down to the water he wanted to boogey board and he didn't have one. So I really felt the love of Christ, and I gave him mine. And then we were friends. There is a proverb that says that there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.

In elementary school I was a good example, and I had witness. I also had witness with Mike, the kid, but my good habits were corrupted.

One day I was at his house when I shouldn't have been. And then the Holy Spirit told me to leave. I don't think it was necessarily because I wasn't supposed to be there when his parents weren't. And I didn't do what He said. And then I came around. So I got up and told him I was going to leave. And then he said he wanted to show me something. And I was like powerless. And so he did, and it was pornography, and he gave me some. I really wasn't impressed, but I was caught the whole time from me trying to leave until that, like a deer in headlights.

You have to know that with the LORD it is all about the heart, not any righteousness or works of our own. The LORD knows what happened. Many people have this idea with God that like we are not perfect, but that we should be perfect, or that sin is really the evidence of who I really am. God knows.

One personal note I would like to make is that children need to be attended to through love, not law; and that that has to actually happen. Not trying to escape accountability, but see things according to the bigger picture, and also escape condemnation.

Do you know what the transgression of Adam is? It is that he didn't know what to do, and he sinned. He couldn't do anything without the knowledge of good and evil. And with Eve she thought she was doing good, Satan told her a 'white' lie. Pride is a deception and the Bible says that Adam was not deceived. And neither of them sinned until they ate of the fruit. So it is not like they just turned evil. Many people have this idea that like people who sin are unable to be renewed unto repentance, unless they come to the LORD condemning themselves. Like telling Him that they are not with Him, can't be, and won't be until heaven. That is the unprofitable servant. That is playing the virgin, and that is what Israel did and then went into captivity because of that. No one should come to the LORD and do that. That is really actually really blasphemous.

And really also the blasphemy of the Holy Spirit is knowing what to do or not to do, and sinning. Like how the Bible talks about that. The unforgivable sin is doing that in the perfect imperative. Which means that a person never comes to Christ. When Christ came, and was not accepted, many did that. Many wanted to see Him conquer Rome first. He came in on a donkey. The unprofitable servant wants to see the works first. And they don't want in, unless like He serves them, in an evil way. Like telling someone that you aren't doing anything until you see the completed work. Like, 'Maybe. Prove it first.'� And there are many ways of saying that.

Well, when that snake bit Paul in Acts it is testimony. It is like gathering to make a fire (worship), and then something happens (sin); which I was not trying to go do. Paul shook off the snake into the fire (worship).

Well I became addicted to pornography. And also that drove me into not being social after a while. And also in seventh grade a girl in my class, Megan, her brother said something hurtful to me. I was walking up with another student, and her brother came, and said, 'Why are you hanging out with him? He is a dork.'� And the other guy walked off with him. I was hurt from her brother, but then also I wanted to now be popular and was scared about that because of the person who walked off with him.

Also in seventh grade, after that I think; I asked God for Megan.

Before that, I think, I had been thinking, 'Oh no. I hope I don't start thinking this way about girls.'� Concerning pornography.

I was walking up one day in the morning and I was thinking about how I really wanted to be with a girl. I had fear that I was never going to have the things that my heart wanted.

In Christ, one's spirit, heart, and soul is perfect and sinless. And also has perfect intentions, desires, and thoughts.

So I regarded God in my heart that morning. And also I cried out to him. Well shortly after that He asked who I wanted. And I asked for Megan.

Right after that though I wanted to ask her out right away. I was that kind of person after my 'change' in sixth grade. Well also, I had to overcome with everything that happened with her brother. I think I knew where she would be. So I went girding up my loins to ask her out. And the circumstance did not allow it. And I kind of almost broke after that. I felt like a failure. I didn't even see her, but with what was going on in my flesh. And after that I was always enraptured loving her, and also wanting to somehow talk to her, and ask her out.

At some point I started to listen to music. My cousin listened to Nirvana when Nevermind came out. I think I got into the Beatles first though. I had a compilation, and Sgt. Pepper's. And then I also got into Nirvana, and Jimi Hendrix. And I grew into doing drugs. Really I wouldn't do drugs, and they were offered to me for a while. And then I started to move into that direction.

I started with pot, and then alcohol, and then ecstasy, and then coke, and then more ecstasy, and then acid, and then a lot more ecstasy.

Everything after the pot and alcohol was after graduating.

Well I still loved Megan in high school. But we never got together. I was pretty shy a lot, and also she was walking as a Christian, and I was into music.

Well in 2001 I met a girl at a party. I was on ecstasy. And I slept with her. And I had a relationship with her, and a child. The last time I did any drugs was 2002.

I came to find out that she is a Jezebel, a witch. I didn't know until, I think, 2004.

Well I had been doing some things that were outrageous after I met her. I got secluded from the people I knew.

I walked pretty good though, and I took care of my daughter. I was working two jobs at one point. And like getting up at about 6, and getting home at about 12.

She used me though. The LORD brought me back to Him in 2002 before Jade was born. And God told me, 'Look to Me, and all is saved.'�

I didn't want to have sex with her until we were married. And then she said she cheated on me. And then I got cornered, and she got custody of Jade. Not really like I don't have custody, but Jade stays with her. I went into the Military. I was in the Navy for a while. I had wanted to before we broke up. I wanted to go into the Air Force, but they want people with children to be married.

I started to go crazy though. I know what happened now though. Michelle's grandma and aunt and mother are witches also. I started doing weird and crazy things, and had to spend some time in the hospital. I remember being in the hospital, and thinking something like, 'What did I do?'� And I was really broken, and wanted to go into the Military right away. I was in an out with acting crazy. I know what they were doing. They were making it so that when I went to really follow the LORD they manifested. And also it happened that they were manipulating my ability to love the LORD too, or trying, according to any tie I had from being with Michelle, and being with them.

Well I went into the Navy. I got a 93 on the ASVAB. I was in the top of my division. Some things were happening though. Evil manifestations to ruin my life. And also I noticed something: like what David said about, 'I am for peace, but when they speak, they are for war.'� I am not an anarchist, but there are problems with our country. For one, they tie themselves to only do the best with what they have, but ironically and truthfully, it's not the best. I also knew some things, that I hope to touch on later in this. I got a general discharge.

I lived with a family for a little while. One of the teachers from the high school I went to, who also was my band teacher in sixth grade, and also we went to the same church. The one at where I met Mike from.

Well, when I was in the Military I started taking psychotropic medications. I had no where else to go. I had been praying, and like always trying to follow the LORD. This was one of those times where it was like 'Read it again.'� And one time I was praying and I saw in the Spirit that I was before Jesus' throne. And then a dragon came along and said that he was going to sit on His throne. I have been in the Spirit before where I have had visions of being before Jesus' throne. I couldn't overcome everything all the way. And maybe I will get to touch on that later.

So I had stopped taking medications while living with the family I was with after that. And I was fine. I was paying for rent partly with money and partly with work. Well I had pretty much finished all of my work, it was yard work. And I also started to have a 'drop off' in the Spirit. And I also began to see in the spirit what was going on with this family. And I devoted myself to prayer. Also I had the freedom of finishing my yard work in full, any time before the month was over. But then the family started to really come against me. Like getting legalistic. And they manipulated it so that I had to either go back on my medication, or stop praying like I was, or leave. So I played it according to God. And they thought I was crazy. They ended up calling the cops on me trying to have them make me take my medication. They were twisting my words, and accusing me and usurping me. I ended up leaving there, but I did not have a place to go. So I was homeless. I had been there before. When I was with Michelle. I had been kicked out of my mom's house after having her sleep over, after I had moved out of my apartment. And then I moved to Spokane for a little while. And then I came back and she got kicked out of her grandma's house for a phone bill for when I was in Spokane. Honestly I am not sure how that happened. Over 450.00 dollars is a lot. I mean I don't think we were on the phone that much, her calling me. So then we lived in my 92 5.0 hatchback.

Honestly I felt alive being homeless. I knew the rave scene, about you know, being social and having like one thing lead to another, and also feeling like being adventurous. And also I knew that Kurt and Jimi made it. I really poured myself out.

My cousin had told me that every time he did ecstasy he felt more social. And he had told me that drugs bring out feelings that are already there, that they are not fake. So I was trying to be social on ecstasy. And I went on an ecstasy bing after I stopped doing coke. I really felt like I had come into being who I was.

Well God met me when Michelle left for the East coast to visit her family. I really was in love with God. I had my heart's desire. That feeling where it was my deepest desire, and what I wanted, and it was also God.

When I was homeless I tried to have everything that I did be God. Also before, when I was with Michelle we would go to the library or Barnes and Noble and read. And I tried to really study the Bible this time. Michelle and I had stopped seeing each other before I went into the Military.

I really felt good. I mean, I really felt like I was following the LORD. And also I had witness. I mean I wasn't letting anything come in between me and the LORD. And it was love, not offense. Praise God!

I remember really looking for purpose.

Michelle's aunt, a witch, had given me a book when Michelle was in labor with Jade. It was 'Extreme for Jesus.'� I read that book back and forth. It was in pieces. This was before I knew they were witches, this was 2002. I had told Michelle when she was back east, that I had been fasting, and she made a comment like, 'I don't want to come home to a scarecrow.'�

And I got into looking at what I had to work on. And if I couldn't find anything, I would work on that. I would write down promises. I would do word searches. And I would try to solve, and come into His life. When I was looking for purpose I did that.

About her being a witch: The LORD gives beauty for ashes. And also, all things work for good to those who love God. The Bible says to be faithful with the little. And also that 'he who has, more will be given.' So I did everything I could. I trusted and worshiped God. And also I followed everything I could, and would not turn away from the LORD. Praise God!

I went through a lot. I was homeless for a while.

Well God really blessed me. He chose me.

In 2006 something happened. Megan came to me. But she didn't come to me directly.

First let me fill you in on the past. One time on coke I had really fiended and fell asleep on the floor. I had done some Columbian coke. And a lot for how early it was in doing coke. Well I had a dream that I had od'd. And I was in a coma, but I could feel everyone's thoughts all around me. Then I woke up, but I woke up in my bed. I couldn't remember getting into my bed. So I kind of tripped out. With movies like the Matrix, and even without that, since that didn't come to me later; was that I had been in the hospital, and then had started to come out of it, and was put in my bed. God has told me I think that I was still dreaming when I got into my bed. Also do you know how Paul was beaten to the point of death, and then got up? Because he committed himself to God, and let his life be in the Spirit. Just how Jesus did. That happened with me. I remember one of the last things that I did before I went to sleep was tell God I was sorry. And the sleep and dream came like it wasn't just like I dozed off to sleep. Also after being with Michelle my reality got messed up. I had told her things about me, and also I think they were causing things to come up in me. And also it was like they made it so that it was through the sin that was in me. So it was like it wasn't just something outside of me.

Well in 2002 something else happened. Michelle's sisters had come to live with their grandma where we were staying with. And I remember when we were homeless Michelle had the idea of going to live out there. But I had this knowledge that she would get involved with them, and then everyone would be used against me. Well that started to happen when they came out to San Diego. And one time they were talking with a double tongue, and I had to leave the room. Spirits were moving. So I went and sat on the chair in the living room. And God told me I was supposed to be with Megan. Now I tested, and did everything right according to the Spirit. But also my flesh manifested. And put together that Megan was Michelle, but in my virtual reality existence, which now was being backed up be spirits, and a story. And I had a strong tie, because I wanted to be with Megan. I mean I didn't believe it all of the way. But it was going on. Also I had told Michelle about Megan, and I think that most of the things that were going on with me were things that they put together. They were messing with me since I was with Michelle in the beginning.

So things were happening and I didn't know what to believe. Having the tie of wanting to be with Megan really also gave them a foothold to work on, and I will maybe show later how this was. But with this going on it was easier for them to try to pull me away from the LORD.

So with Megan coming to me, but not all of the way, they messed up. I think she wanted to see if I loved her. But really this was behind the back.

But I played it according to faith. Do you see this? I didn't just sin because sin was there. I played it with what I had. And God loves that, because there is no excuse to just give up. That is how to be the unprofitable servant because they want to wait for everything to be perfect before they move.

Well I called my mentor, and I told him that I had asked God, and He had told me I was supposed to marry her. Which was huge. I had kept myself from coming into agreement with any of the things and ways that she had come to me and had going on.

A little bit before this I was at San Diego State in the library. And I had been given something from the LORD. A study. And later that day some people came up to me and wanted to know if I wanted them to pray with me. They were being somewhat controlling, but I found a way to be with them. And then they also were double talking, and mentioning things about how I had talked to Megan in 2003. Because I had gone to her, and talked to her for a little while, and also tried to see exactly what was going on. I did a lot of things at once by contacting her.

But that night, after that day at San Diego State I had a vision. A door opened up in heaven, and I heard Megan praying for me. And I dealt with it. Then I heard and saw that God told her that she was supposed to marry me. And really I kept myself from everything, because I knew I had talked to her in 2003, and had tried to talk to her more after the first conversation, and had not been too well received.

So I played the whole thing- after she had come to me without coming to me in 2006, through my church.

And God was still really working. I was in a lot of warfare with the witches. And also Megan knew that, and also my church. Well that door that was there, was still active. And I asked her to marry me through my mentor. This I didn't think was in any way not romantic. And I received in the Spirit that she said yes. I had been writing studies for a while, and had been having a lot of revelation.

Well I kept walking.

And Megan never came to me. She wanted me to have a job and a nice place to stay, which really was the way she was brought up- and like I have heard in the Spirit: the whole thing was about money. And having a good showing in the flesh.

But I had been anointed in 2003 a prophet. I worked somewhat, but I let nothing come in between me and the LORD. Praise God!

And God had been moving and giving a lot in 2006.

Well Megan had every opportunity to come to me, but she never did, and has not still.

This actually is the quaint essential example of the unprofitable servant.

Well God showed me a lot of things.

I have a lot of prophecy that I don't have with me because I had been changing my email address, where I have my studies, a few times. And I didn't really transfer them over because so much was prophecy. But I had communication to Megan through my family. I had also given my email password, and I would mark as read the letters in my sent file.

But I am pretty sure that everything got saved through my mentor. And also I have not seen him for a while. There was some division as I walked with these things going on. And also I got through everything; anything and everything that she could have asked me to get or come through; but then the things that I had going on for which she did not want to meet with me, were the things that I had through her not coming to me.

So I have some material here that I would like to get started with, but a note for the editors and publishers, I would like to go with more, as soon as things come together more.

I called Megan's dad last night. I had called him after Megan wasn't coming to me through my mentor in 2006 and he really messed up. He is a minister and he lied and accused, and condemned, and also humiliated me. Last night I called him, and he did the same thing. I humbled myself and was single, and I told him that God said that if you are at the altar and anyone has anything against you to go to them. And I did, and her dad was very rude. And also that whole family are unprofitable servants. With the unprofitable servants, what they do is that they either try to hide behind their sins as an excuse to not love, or then they act through offense and try to make their works or own righteousness reasons and excuses to not change and or love.

Do you see the wickedness of this? Many of the people were going to let this happen, and then say something like, 'See? You had your chance. You had your opportunity. You were enlightened. Your own faith and knowledge knew, and this is what you did.'�

Now I still have doubts with what happened. I still feel like I could put things together apart from my faith. But I know better. Like I could just put this together as my church doing it and having nothing to do with Megan. But I know that that is not true. My church would have come to me, they would have done something. First of all also they wouldn't have done that. They wouldn't have done something to condemn me like that, there would have been promise in what they did. If they wanted to do that apart from Megan, then there are a number of ways they could have tried, either for good or for bad.

I was at the Sunday night thing, and two girls were sitting at this table with one of the guys in the College group I know, who I went to high school with also. And one girl wrote down that her name was Megan, and also the other girl was writing down things that were going on in the spirit that were things, ~'I could work on.'~ I hadn't seen those girls before. And also I really see in the spirit that was Megan's friends, and not my church. Also I am thinking about what happened at SDSU.

And also before that day at SDSU with those guys who wanted to pray with me, I was at the mall. And I saw a guy who I went to high school with, but did not really know. And I had been kind of manifesting some unsound things. And before I had manifested I knew, someone might see me. You know like religious crazy stuff, that can be noticed, like how to eat right. So I think that that started it.

Really all that I have to go off of is the LORD. And I don't see any evidence that that was not Megan's friends at the College group that night.

I still though want to know definitively in the physical. But I don't know how. Everyone treats me like I am crazy, and also they don't talk to me straight. How can I put this together? What am I supposed to do? Also when I was in warfare before Megan came to me in 2006 I had spiritual understanding and knowledge in the Spirit that my mentor had gone to Megan to tell her that I had thought that she was Michelle. I mean I didn't know for sure, but there was knowledge going either way; that is why I had to know what happened. And now people are not being straight with me. They tried to play it, like so that I wouldn't be crushed or go crazy. When really if they didn't want that to happen, why do what they did?

I mean wouldn't someone come to me after I have called her parents and talked to people we both know, and tell me that I was wrong if I was?

I know for sure. Because I know those people whom I have contact with, and also I know and can tell what the reality is by our relationship.

What I haven't had is anything from Megan which is straight.

The Spirit said that she had said yes to my marriage proposal.

I think what was shown is how some people walk lukewarm, and how it is about money and a good showing.

I know for sure, and still I am tortured by their scheme. Because much of their scheme was to prove to me that a person can't know only in the Spirit, that that is crazy. When that is wrong. Do you see how there is no truth by just looking at the physical? That is why the Spirit is life.

Now I would like to share some of my discoveries right now.

'Overcoming the world'�
I have heard of the world and it's hardships being like a legal contract, that also has fine print. But also my boast is that God and grace has fine print too.

Now I have read through Bullinger's book on the stars. And if you read about the definition given here for the source of evil power you can see that all evil is grace manipulated. (That grace still goes out though because God is love). Now in going through his book it can be seen that God has the solution before there is a problem. Also our God is great! Do you know what else that means? It means that any kind of mess up, can't mess us up! Praise God!

Now of the religious people, Jesus said that harlots and tax collectors would enter into the kingdom of God before them. And also what does it mean when Jesus told the woman caught in adultery to go and sin no more?

Most people I know who 'don't have sins;' besides like, 'I am mean to someone' or something like that- those people have not actually gone through anything or overcome anything. It is one thing to grow up in a house where no one does anything but keep the laws of being a 'profitable' family. And another thing entirely for those who know that any action has no bearing at all to the heart. Only the heart. What I see is the Christian religion. Which drives people out and away from it. The world is full of people crying out. I see a Christian religion which says: "Join." Journey (a church I am with) does a good job of showing people the good for what people go through. So I wonder for those Christians who really walk like they are holding the laws of Christianity, and keeping themselves from impurity. That is hypocrisy. The logos (Greek word for written word, rhema means the word that is relationship): it is dung and rubbish and menstrual rags; people would be better off not having it: if they think that life is found in it; or worse, keeping it. "Well, Paul said to keep one's self from sexual immorality." "The Bible says to keep one's self unspotted from the world." And so on and so on.

Luke 13:1-5
1 There were present at that season some who told Him about the Galileans whose blood Pilate had mingled with their sacrifices. 2 And Jesus answered and said to them, 'Do you suppose that these Galileans were worse sinners than all other Galileans, because they suffered such things? 3 I tell you, no; but unless you repent you will all likewise perish. 4 Or those eighteen on whom the tower in Siloam fell and killed them, do you think that they were worse sinners than all other men who dwelt in Jerusalem? 5 I tell you, no; but unless you repent you will all likewise perish.'�

I once described Christianity as people climbing against each other to get to God. That is what it has come to. Someone's actions 'gives me the leg up to do my thing.'

Psalm 50:23
23 Whoever offers praise glorifies Me;
And to him who orders his conduct aright
I will show the salvation of God.'�

Praise:
He would love to hear this from people:
Song of Songs 4:9
You have ravished my heart
With one look of your eyes,
With one link of your necklace.

Ordering conduct aright:
Song of Songs 2:14
"in the clefts of the rock,
In the secret places of the cliff,
Let me see your face,
Let me hear your voice;
For your voice is sweet,
And your face is lovely.'�

Salvation:
Honor:
Psalm 66:18
If I regard iniquity in my heart,
The Lord will not hear.

Let me talk about that verse Psalm 66:18:

Our soul is made up of five parts. The body of ten. Ten is the number for the body of Christ. The Old Testament temple has three platforms with four rooms. There is the spirit, the heart, and they are one, and on the same platform. That is three. Then there is the nephesh, which is the total inheritance, and at the same time the cornerstone; then the ruwach; then the will, and then the mind. The fifth comes in God. The fifth thing in the soul is the imagination. That is eight. The body is nine, all of those one is ten. Therefore one may see how the Spirit is involved: creation. Five is the number for creativity (Five parts to the soul or second platform).

The way to add up the parts of the body is to add the specifics of the body, and then add them as being all together. So like the spirit and the heart, that's two; and then those together is three. The imagination being the fifth though- the way it works is that that only gets added in when the first platform is added to it. And then like the body would be nine; and then everything together is ten.

Proverbs 2:1-5 (5 the number for creativity)
Love
1 My son, if you receive my words,
And treasure my commands within you,
Faith
2 So that you incline your ear to wisdom,
And apply your heart to understanding;
Hope (don't cast it off->don't stop, go->faith)
3 Yes, if you cry out for discernment,
And lift up your voice for understanding,
Hidden chambers (Worship Him with memories, and His quiet waters)
4 If you seek her as silver,
And search for her as for hidden treasures;
Desire:
5 Then you will understand the fear of the LORD ("What I want is no one to judge, I want the heart"),
And find the knowledge of God.

The hidden chambers is the place where the elders were worshiping the creatures in Ezekiel. It symbolizes the subconscious.


From Matthew 6:33
But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these (Provisions) things shall be added to you.

This sounds like this:
Psalm 27:4
One thing I have desired of the LORD,
That will I seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the LORD
All the days of my life,
To behold the beauty of the LORD,
And to inquire in His temple.

Does this mean that I find out how low I am, and also how God just wants me to learn how everything is not about me?

I have heard love described as having a crush. Like always thinking about him or her or God.

Where does love come from, and what is love? God! We also are the apple of His eye. It works out so that because of, and through, and in, and of, and with God that it is always about us. Humility is not how it is not about me, no. I remember that it is His good pleasure to give us the kingdom.

Now also,
From Romans 14:17
kingdom of God...(is) righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.

Now if the kingdom of God is righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit, why in Matthew 6 did Jesus say to seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness? Well first of all God is love. That means from what I have shown here that it is about me. So this righteousness and peace and joy is mine. I am with Him. This is the Sabbath, at rest and feasting. This is all things. So this is what I seek. Not rules, not laws, not to be the best in front of people. And now, I also seek His righteousness.

Back to Proverbs 2:
My son (Or daughter) (He calls us His children. This is after us having His love and righteousness, peace, and joy), if you receive my words, (Okay, now this is us getting Him now. We love Him because He first loved us. That is love. Even between spouses. It's not that like I deface myself, and then we both do that, and then we come together and try to find out how we can do things with having the least amount love because of what we think the logos says. Now this means that I have been so loved, my every fiber has been touched, and I have bee given things, great and precious promises; and also I have been given my heart's desires, because He loves me, not because I worked or I made sure I brought myself low enough to where it was not about me. I have been given everything that I have ever wanted in Him. And now I want to love Him. He loved me. There is no guilt, or shame, or condemnation like I should have done this or that first. No, He loved me; and since I have been touched, and have everything I have ever wanted in Him; I love Him.)
And treasure my commands within you, (This is different. There are His words, and there are His commands. Not everything is a command, and actually the command came after the love, and the reception of Him. Because He loved me and I want to love Him. He commands us to save us from thinking that we aren't going to prosper. And in Joshua He said: "Have I not commanded you?" What this means is that it is going to happen no matter what, and that doesn't mean now He does everything like I am not going to get it if I mess up, no this is the foundation for the love song. So with the definition for agapeo [It means what my heart treasures most] I give myself over to loving Him, no matter what.)
2 So that you incline your ear to wisdom (I am fulfilling my love of Him, and accepting Him for who He is. The wisdom is that good and perfect gift. It is what will lead me to fulfillment.)
And apply your heart to understanding; (This is like David telling Solomon that in all your getting [wisdom], get understanding! That is the abundantly above all that we could ask or think! And understanding is easy: it is that thing that I want-> it's also with Jesus, and nothing is compromised. And the application is: I apply myself, and I can do that because God has loved me, and now I love myself.)
3 Yes, if you cry out for discernment, (Here is what I love, it is the complete and total pouring out. I have already received abundantly above all that I could ask or think. Now is the Spirit of Joash. [He was crushed when he saw he messed up]. He did beat the ground three times. To me, really, that was abundantly above all that he could ask or think. I believe there is a lesson here. It is that word for cry that I have heard means that I am being filled and I cry out for more. Like when Paul says that our spirit cries out Abba Father. So in concept this is us getting to now stand with God. We were at the low place. Now we get to come to the high place. Which David had with God. So God gave the abundantly above all that we could ask or think. Now we stand with Him, and ask for more. Stand, and then having done all, stand (more). So God is surety for me; and I receive abundantly above all that I could ask or think; and then I get to be surety; because God is like that; we get to love each other. David praised His power.)
And lift up your voice for understanding, (This is how to cry: ask. I said that understanding was 'that thing that I want', Jesus is in it; and now: to the full. And nothing is compromised.)
4 If you seek her as silver, (Silver is the material which symbolizes redemption. Silver gleams, and when it does it has a sharpness. This symbolizes being able to do what I want!)
And search for her as for hidden treasures; (Like the woman in Luke 15; spare no expense; without shame. It is not shameful to have fervent desire of which nothing will keep me from achieving.)
5 Then you will understand the fear of the LORD,
And find the knowledge of God.

2 Timothy 2:15
present yourself approved to God, a worker who does not need to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.

(Because it is about love! Not some law!)

The word of truth divides into three parts: the Father, the Spirit, and the Son. The past, the present, and the future. Love, faith, and hope. Love, joy, and peace. Patience, kindness, and goodness. Faithfulness, Gentleness, and self-control. And there is another promise: Immortality, incorruption; and the fruit: everlasting life. Also it is wisdom, understanding, and knowledge. Married couples are wisdom and understanding, and together knowledge. But also when they are together they are all things. And now also there is His death, sufferings, and blood. There is belief, believing, and promise. There is praise, strength, and joy. (Out of the mouths of babes and nursing infants He has ordained strength and perfect praise; and the joy of the LORD is my strength). There is spirit, soul, and body. Our mind is made up of three parts: there is the nous (A Greek word for mind: makeup), emotions, and feelings. In the Hebrew there are also three words for the mind: the kilyah which divides into two parts: the reins, and the kidneys. Which is symbolic of the subconscious, and the conscious mind. And there is also the ruwach, which is symbolic of the spirit of the mind. The lebab is the conscience, and the inner man of which Paul speaks about, but in the Greek; this is the Hebrew word. And I think the most important part of this word is 'seat.' And that also goes with the mercy (being allowed to receive no matter what) seat. The high and lofty place is where we get to sit and enjoy and rest and have courage.

In talking about the mind; with the reins, the kidneys, and the spirit; past, present, and future can also be seen here. Reins comes from like a horse. And when a person is riding, they are going from where they were to where they are, and where they are going. (Notice that even the past contains all three. I was going to point that out. DNA is godly. It is okay to be a doctor, but not divide the word of truth? This goes for the entire trinity.) Kidneys in the body represent the organ of all of our wellness. This means that no matter what we are worshiping God in the present. Which we are without excuse with because if we can refine and cleanse and cleanse ourselves and keep the spoil->? (Numbers, before the Promised land!) And we are always carrying the cross. Because the cross means that we honor the insides. That is the offense of the cross which Paul spoke of. The spirit is like our hope. And also it is where our depths come from.

Now also these three things apply to our body a different way. (Healing too). The blood, our body, our water.

Worshiping God in the present can be what we physically do- that worships God no matter what. Jesus' flesh was becoming every sin until He died.

What we divide the word of truth with is the Word of God:

Hebrews 4:12
the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.

What is the word of God? Love!
Everything that I have ever wanted in Him! Now:

The love of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, giving even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart; and I receive every good and perfect gift.
Not to be complicated, but this means that I can get through anything; and without law- with love!

God is the past present and future, and all of those at the same time. Eternity used to trip me out. I couldn't grasp it, but then love came. It doesn't mean that God is like out there, or that there is something about Him we can't know. Or that He is somewhere we will never be able to be. What it means is that what I am doing right now: is what I want. Jesus coming in the flesh: how much He loves us.

Proverbs 3:9-10
9 Honor the LORD with your possessions,
And with the firstfruits of all your increase;
10 So your barns will be filled with plenty,
And your vats will overflow with new wine.

The honoring the LORD with one's possessions is how to divide the word of truth. The firstfruits is love, the barns filled with plenty is faith, and the new wine and overflowing is hope.

Honoring Him with my possessions means this: that I start with what I have. So honoring God is that I don't walk around thinking I am a sinner! But that God loves.

'The Companion'�
The Bible also says that the Spirit will tell us things to come. Now some people have accused me of Christian Science before. But all of nature points to God. And also before Israel went into the Promised land they were told with one of the nations they beat, to refine and cleanse the spoil, and then cleanse themselves and to keep it. You will notice in Hebrews 11:3 that the physical is built upon the spiritual. And also every religion is a fake. I was watching this movie called paycheck. And in it there was a time machine. But not to time travel, but to view time. Which in the movie they said Einstein thought was possible. They had a lens that could see around the universe. So what happened was that the lens reached and went around the universe, and then when it came full circle, one would be looking at themselves, but in the future.

Now meditation is Christian. Here is an example of meditation:

Put some water on a plate, and get a flashlight, and then shine it on the water, and then blow on it. That is God. Now once people get a taste of the powers of the age to come, and they love God, it is like they always want to keep things going. Also I have talked about how prophets have that going on, because they want to make sure they stay with God. So people then always want the water to be moving, or still. Kind of like the Sabbath: let's rest, or lets feast. But the answer is neither of those. The answer is to make sure that the water is clear, which is cleanness. And the fear of the LORD is clean, enduring forever. So really balancing is how to walk with the LORD. Which is what the apostle gives: equity (Proverbs 2).

The Jews also have a belief regarding a pendulum. Now it swings from Echad to Yachid, and pretty soon there is conception in the middle because of the speed at which the pendulum moves.

To and fro is an example of sex. So when the angels are ascending and descending it is prophecy, and also understanding as to how to know God.

Echad is like being one with God, but also an individual. And Yachid is like being one with God but having that triune relationship. Ascending and descending is the to and fro.

The same thing happens here, when the powers of the age to come are tasted. It's like the person cries out for the goodness of these knowledge's, and also wants to have it so that they don't have to compromise one for the other.

Really worshiping Tammuz, and Ishtar is like playing the virgin with God. It is like the man works and the women are the stone which the builders refused.

Paul spoke about marriage being honored, and the word for honored spared no expense. Also he said to be content which such things as you have. Now the only point which is always content is the point at which the pendulum hangs. And that is God and love. But as He is in Spirit and truth.

Meditation is going to and fro with something on the mind.

Not to overwhelm but my daughter when she plays gets a bunch of toys out and then starts playing with them, and I am not sure if she plays with all of them. But she is happy. And that is what God likes. The only way to worship Him, is how we want to, because love is a choice.

One pastor accused me of "The deeper life club." That is so Laodicean.

Now also with the lens that can see around the universe, and view the future.

First I have to say that building treasures in heaven, is the future. Next I have to say for there to be the physical there has to be the spiritual. The world has made it so that for the spiritual to be true there has to be the physical, which is not right or true, even with prophecy. Like what was going on in Ezekiel: God had to tell the religious people, that though they say that God speaks and then it doesn't come to pass, that this will surely come to pass. Because God doesn't want robots, He wants people who freely choose Him. And what religious people start to do, is say things like, "If God wants to, He will 'make' me." Like in Isaiah, God goes back and forth between telling them how they were wrong, and giving promises. So the people were starting to think in Ezekiel that God's words weren't coming to pass, when really it was because He was giving them a chance, and they never came to Him. For something to be the truth in the physical it has to be true in the spiritual.

The way to view the future is to repent. The Spirit of Elijah is the Spirit of Repentance. Now Elijah ran ahead of Ahab to Jezreel. Nabath I think means fruit, and was at the opening I think of the valley of Jezreel. And Ahab before he repented was a pouty person. That kind of attitude is like leading into doing sin. So Elijah, the Spirit of Repentance, ran ahead of Ahab to the valley of Jezreel. And He did that by repenting. He also beat Ahab who was in a chariot there in the physical.

The Bible also talks about what the different parts of our body do, and how they worship God. The spirit seeks, the soul rejoices, and the flesh longs. The spirit seeks, the soul thirsts, and the flesh hungers. The Old Testament temple is a type of our body. It had three platforms. The Holy of Holies which is symbolic of our spirit is on the same platform as the Holy Place, which is symbolic of the heart. The heart dines. David said, "Deep calls unto deep." That is our spirit with His. All of His waves and billows is submitting to Him, which is done in the fear of the LORD. Now the way I walk, the way I know if something is God, is wisdom. If it's not wisdom which agrees with love (the Spirit), and His word (truth); then it is not God.

Also some people try to say that they read the word, and it is right if it agrees with the Spirit. Or that they walk in the Spirit, and it is right if it agrees with the word. That is not right. The rhema is having a relationship with the LORD. Now Paul told Timothy to give himself over to the doctrine. That is what all should do. Because whenever the Spirit moves it is giving doctrine, which is the word of God. And that is how to have a relationship with Jesus. That is the rhema. And it goes from there.

The way to walk in the light is given in John. There are three that bear witness on the earth, it doesn't matter if the Word and the Spirit agree, they always do. What matters is that we are walking in the light, which is done through the blood. And being born again with the sinless spirits, hearts, and souls, is with the three that bear witness in heaven. So to be born again takes becoming one with Jesus, of His body; which is the Word.

There are five distinct knowledge's of God: Echad, Yachid, ascending and descending, all things, and rest.

'The end and the beginning'�
Daniel 12:4
many shall run to and fro, and knowledge shall increase

Marriage in heaven. Jesus didn't cast the pearl before the Sadducees. Just like He deals with unprofitable servants. Living to Him: we do that now! Like the angels: It says: "At the resurrection". There is stuff after the resurrection. Now also, if we can't live married, how can we live alone? Many have this idea that like all have is brotherly love and we like worship Jesus physically in front of Him day and night. That is not true. We have lives. He wants us to be just like Him, have things, and enjoy things. And marriage is not immature. Jesus is married. And we spiritually have with Him everything that a husband and wife have. Jesus is like the bride of the Father. It is not like marriage is unlike God. Or this whole thing is some lessen about how selfless men and women should be. That is false humility. This whole existence is about being the praise and glory of God. If we are neither male nor female then we have to be God, because man and woman are created in His image, not to be Him. Being neither male nor female means we are complete in Christ because all male and female attributes come from Him. It doesn't mean we are not male or female right now. It means we are complete until the right time. Husband and wife have the same relationship He has as the trinity. We get to be the same body, and the voice of the bridegroom and bride. Through God. The Bible also says that "Eye has not seen, nor has ear heard, nor has entered into the heart of man what God has prepared for those who love Him." He reveals it to us by His Spirit. Plus check out Revelation 6 with the white horse. That is the one who will go to perdition. Jesus opened up the seal to let Himself out? Plus the counterfeit comes before the real. All religions are a fake.

Adam and Eve were married, in the context that we are married to Christ right now, as Paul explained in Romans 7. Weddings are symbolic of incorruption. And they had that upon them before Pentecost. Do you know why the fall happened? Because they couldn't eat of the tree of life without choosing it freely because "Do not stir up nor awaken love, until it pleases." And they couldn't eat of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil because of this: the way Satan fell. To have the knowledge of good and evil and not have incorruption is for sure going to fall. The knowledge of good and evil is not evil. Eden means heart of God. And Satan told Eve a 'white' lie. We can't repent without the knowledge of good and evil. Otherwise, what are we doing? So God commanded them not to. They had the knowledge of good. Now about Satan. He was an unprofitable servant. God showed me that Lucifer never sinned, and also is going to exist again, and right now is in God. Satan fell. Because God took Himself out of that vessel, and Satan wanted back. It was like lightning. Paul says that God makes vessels of honor and dishonor out of the same lump. That is how freewill and predestination are reconciled. Because only those whom God made to be with Him are saved. And He gives them true freewill. Which is choosing Him. By Him completely. Those He predestined.

Satan called himself a god, trying to get being Lucifer again. The Bible calls us elohims. We get to be like God. We get to do everything He does. And He operates through us. Being an elohim takes incorruptibility.

Adam and Eve had no chance without the knowledge of good and evil to overcome Satan. That is creation being subjected to futility, not willingly (Adam and Eve), because of Him who subjected it in hope: bringing many sons and daughters to glory.

Angels also are going to be able to have families. Plus Jesus said, "The sons of this age." And also "At the resurrection." Many saints rose with Him when He was resurrected. Which also is what Paul is talking about with the dead rising and the rapture. Many do not distinguish the rapture with the second coming. That His body, does not go through wrath. Otherwise, why the sacrifice of Jesus? And what does it do? Even our consequences were put on Him (Avon in the Hebrew). So the dead in Christ are going to rise on Firstfruits just like He did, and those apart from the law did then, then forty days later, we shall be raptured. There are different Greek words for 'know.' Jesus didn't intuitively know the day of return, and really that speaks about the second coming too, until later. Everything He did, He did so that we can. That is also why Revelation is what was given to Him, and He gave to John. Now He knows all things. When Jesus spoke about some rising and condemning that generation, though generation in some contexts still refers to us; He spoke about those saints who rose with Him. And did what I think He did: preach, and reveal.

Derek Prince prophesied that a revival would come before He returned, that would start small and go into an ocean.

Now also, do you know what the unprofitable servants' talent going to the one who has means? It means that the lump of the unprofitable servant goes into outer darkness, and that person who was in Christ, who never came to full fruitition that talent goes to heaven. And they are born, through another. None are lost except those who go to perdition. Like Judas. Nothing is lost. Only those vessels of wrath are lost. But who they were in Him, is not lost. Doesn't God say that His word accomplishes what it was sent for? It is not like the unprofitable servant just messed up one day. No! They never finished the deal, and they never did because of God's will. This is an example, and then after the New heaven and New earth, there will be no more falling. Because it takes this example to be able to know God fully. Being subjected to futility means that something had to happen so that we could know God as immortal, which means nothing gets by Him; and nothing can beat Him.

Jesus is also an Angel. Do you see? Angels also, though those who fell are not redeemed; are going to have everything. I mean some angels who have fallen are called the sons of God. Have you ever heard of the nephalim? Where do you think the giants came from. Some sinful morphing? That is so impossible you don't even know. Every fruit bears seed according to it's kind. And with man and woman being in the image of God, and Jesus also being an Angel that means that it still worked, but came out dead, because it was unlawful. Also Jude shows how the angels who were fallen went after strange flesh just as also did the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah.

The gift of marriage is being with who you are supposed to be with. Multiple wives doesn't prove marriage in heaven wrong! They didn't even believe in the resurrection! Notice those who don't make it: everything is about how condemned His creatures are. And with the false followers, it is all about how we can't be like God. I mean the Holy Spirit bore Jesus. He can do it. We are only going to remember what is in the Spirit, the treasures in heaven. And until the wedding of the Lamb, no one is married. It would take not existing to let go of that love and knowledge. Is someone going to say that God is not in the marital love? That all we do is get together because we messed up, and now marriage is because of sexual immorality; and we can't love each other with that love in heaven because it is not God's will. What is that? We are always supposed to be enraptured with the love of our spouse. How do a husband and wife build treasures in heaven? Is someone going to tell me that a husband and wife are not one flesh? That's what it would take. Marital love is not wrong. People just go off on agapeo because it sounds intellectual. Agapeo doesn't even mean God's love. Look in John 3. Men agapeo'd darkness. It means what one treasures most. Paul was talking about who might not have the gift of being with the one they are supposed to be with right now, but in heaven, because of how sin really yearns. And how if both aren't in marriage, it doesn't work. And how not all are at that place in their lives. But even then, it is allowed because of feelings.

So Christianity loves something that is not eternal? You can't just forget that love if a married couple really love each other. And that is not infatuation either. That's how God loves us! Look at the scriptures about 'cleft.' That is where those who did not follow God went to sacrifice to their idols, and worship them. Solomon asked the Shulamite to love him, from the clefts. The cleft was where the Israelites waited after Moses died: Bethpeor. What it means is kind of like how Paul talked about the married being like how they have no wife. It means that we don't kill ourselves or jeopardize God for the riches of that love. And being in the clefts, is that place before we get to the promised land. So we shouldn't overwork to become rich. Being enraptured is not evil, and going for it, is not evil either. What is wrong is about lying about what the truth is. Because God understands when it can't be like how one would really want it. But what He doesn't want is for anyone to start making rules or doctrine which says that 'this' is the way it is supposed to be.

Jehovah means. "I have the promises of God."

If we can't live to God married, what are we doing? Did Adam and Eve ruin everything? Or did they have the falling away beyond repentance? Is marriage then not desired of God? Or not eternal? Remember if it's not eternal it will not be in heaven. Only what is in the Spirit is eternal. And some don't have the gift of marriage. Who doesn't want to be married? Sin caused people to give up and believe lies. People can sow to the Spirit, and love marriage. It's not about not being able to love each other because we get taken away from God. So then, how do we exist singularly, or even love brothers and sisters? Nothing is too hard for Him? Know the Scriptures and the power of God!

In building treasures in heaven, the gift of marriage, and marriage in heaven, is hope.

Repentance is not a 180. That came because before it meant to repent in the Greek the word was used as a military command to about face. Isaiah 40:3 is the Spirit of Repentance. It means to prepare the way. Which is to think of one's self in light of Jesus. And integrity is to believe what He says about [you]. His death and life is where the 180 is that people talk about. The word for 'die' in John 12 also contains to rot. We are to walk just as He walked. He poured out His soul, His spirit, heart, and soul didn't sin. His flesh became sin. We can do everything He did and does. When Paul commanded that man's flesh to be given over to destruction, he meant, do this! Let him still prosper as much as possible in the spirit, heart, and soul. Not everybody overcomes every sin of the flesh. They were glorying like how Paul talks about glorying in one's shame.

Also as love faith hope; there is love joy peace
death sufferings blood
John 15:13; Hebrews 12:1-2; Colossians 1:20.

After death, comes the life!

Also there is a celestial body and a terrestrial one. Also remember that our heart, while spiritual, God still says is flesh. And also remember that in 1 Corinthians 15 it says we shall 'bear the image of the heavenly Man.' How can we bear the image of His body without being married? That would mean that we would have to become God because He is the attributes of male and female, and also He is a trinity. We can't put on that kind of body. Right now not being male and female means being in Him. And if we are always to not be triune, then we are not in His image, or His creation, but would have to be Him.

None are married in heaven until the marriage of the Lamb.

The marriage ceremony is so that both wake up and are stirred up when love pleases. And also since Adam was created first, it allows Eve to come to the knowledge, just as there is foreknowledge with God; that they were always together.

We get that with God. Otherwise we are those who aren't saved, who according to John, were never with Him.

Genesis 1:1-2 is God's imagination, which was still work and creation. The formless was wisdom. Wisdom is how to be righteous. The void was understanding as understanding is having that righteousness by doing. And knowledge is the darkness as it is something that has not been revealed yet. Jesus was always in God. When God spoke then creation took form physically.

Now being known as we are known in heaven means that there is now no more mysteries. It is like how 'he who has, more will be given.' It means that with God, and His perfection, it works out just like we go from where we are. That is why there is no darkness with the New heaven and New earth. Because darkness doesn't stand for evil, in the beginning. It stands for something not yet revealed. Psalm 19.

Also the ceremony as Adam was created first is so that he can also be conscious of always being with Eve.
Now they did not per say have a wedding, but it is the same thing as a wedding, just that weddings are when there is incorruption. David didn't want to marry Saul's daughter. And some get married because of circumstance. Paul says we are neither male nor female now. And yet we can get married? He means that everyone in Christ is complete in Him. Male and female are an image of Him. And in heaven, after the marriage of the lamb, there be will marriage. Paul is talking about not being complete. The first thing that God said was not good was for man to remain alone. All are complete in Christ until just the right time.

God also showed me that all of Song of Solomon is before sleeping together. And his crown which his mother gave him was the beginning of the ceremony. They didn't live together yet, and also the way it ends shows that they hadn't had sex yet. With the talk about her breasts.

Understanding is also how Jesus fits in. Adam needed a helper. He needed wisdom. Woman is wisdom, and man understanding, and together they are knowledge.
Love is creating Adam and Eve. Faith is having done that, and being at rest, and then coming on the way to being together. And hope is being together. Just as spirit, soul, body; love, faith, hope. One flesh means the same person. And Adam is a type of God, just as Paul explains. In the sense that a husband is over his wife as Jesus is over man, and the church. Not in the sense of lording authority, but in love. Genesis 24 also shows marriage. Abraham as God. Isaac as Jesus, and the Spirit as the Servant. What God has brought together let man not separate. And when has God ever separated anything that He has brought together. I mean besides divorcing His bride. Do you know what it means when God asks in Isaiah, "Where is the certificate of divorce?" It means that those whom He brought out still had Him upon them, He divorced what was going wrong, and brought back the good. Therefore are those who have the gift of marriage, and who are to be in heaven; what they have, is that to be divorced? The captivity time is to get rid of the enmity. That is what Romans 7 is about. I try to do good, but then because of the condition, I get worked by sin. And remember Paul says that is was sin, not the person, that willful sin; if one is in Christ. 1 John 1 is talking about what actually manifests in the physical in truth. Paul in Romans 7 is talking about the intent to sin which is over the soul. David said that sin was a palm grease over him.

Have you ever tried to walk thinking the soul can sin? It means you would fall away. Just as spirit, soul, body; so is the knowledge of good, good and evil, and life. The war is against the soul, but that is why we must enter into His rest. When did Paul ever just try to get people to agree to come to God, and thinking that they are in? I mean in the regards to: 'Now we are in. Let's use that as an excuse and reason for as why we mess up; and how we get to have these 'ministries' we want. In the Hebrew chattah is the first word for sin in the Bible, at Genesis 4:7. It said that sin was out to get him, Cain, but that he should not let it. Now chet' was upon Christ, which is where chattah comes from. The difference of the two words is before and after the committing of the sin. It covers the habitual sin, thorn in the flesh; even if it is the first time; because that is the nature of this kind of sin. Have you ever had that kind of sin, which was a thorn or habitual, even the first time? Well the law did not come in so that man would be made righteous. But so that sin would be pointed out, Paul said that it came so that the offense might abound. What happens is that through the law men and women are seen, their flesh, for who they are. And it is all about the heart. Moses asked God for grace. And the Bible in the OT talks about living by faith. The Promise in the NT is the sinless spirits, hearts, and souls inside of His children. The chattah then, is like the enmity that happens once we know we are wrong, and are to do good. Now also according to the flesh everyone under Adam was a Gentile. Look at Paul's description of Gentile in Ephesians. And Israel means, "God prevails." Now the condition of sin is ashmah, I think. Reading on in Ephesians it says, that both the law (Having the knowledge to do good or bad); and the condition, is taken away, through Jesus' death. Every sinful thing, He was made.

Now in giving the flesh over to death, Jesus committed His Spirit to the Father, and then breathed His last. We can do the same thing carrying our cross, and that is how it comes to not manifest in the physical. That is the word of faith Paul taught, in Corinth, and also in Romans 10.

And also through dying and living with Christ, it is that He will also give life to our mortal bodies. That is His promise, and we can prosper even now.

Do you know how our sins are put on Jesus even now? Because God from His point of view sees everything. With that greater love, that is how to carry burdens and to die for people. That started in the Garden. Because Jesus said, "Should I ask Him to take this cup from Me?" And then in the Garden He did, sin was being placed on Him, and the blood was flowing. With God's point of view He sees eternity, and also all of eternity in the now. Now, with that love going out, and that sin then being carried and dying with Him; it is that right now, in God's eye my sin in being placed on Jesus.
Now also I can do the same thing with any evil spirit. Remember the evil spirits asked Him if He was going to cast them into the abyss before the time. Therefore with the swine running into the water and drowning, it is the religious running to their sins, as David described his sins as water, and drowning, and then they go to the abyss, or bottomless pit. Therefore we may walk with the eternal God.

Also now since the religious have yet to die in their sins, it is that the demons are confined to the waters, because they are constantly drowning. Because the religious are always in their sins. And remember there are three heavens. And also the waters are between the heavens. And also the physical is a representation of the spiritual, with water, and land; the waters, and the spiritual. The waters I think have to do with baptisms. Now the circle of heaven is humility, judgment, mercy, righteousness, repentance, forgiveness, love. The pillars of the earth are humility, and the womb, judgment. Also bone and flesh. Job 28 is the womb of the earth. Mercy is it's thighs. Also now, the pillars is Romans 7, the womb 1 John 1; and the thighs Hebrews 6 (Can't lose salvation, this is the chance to be the hero; and also it is a love song. Righteousness is it's surface. And also all of creation points to God, and we are in His image, therefore all of this pertains to us, our bodies as well. Well with the first heaven being earth, then repentance is in between earth and the second heaven. And forgiveness between the second heaven and the third heaven. Love is the third heaven.

And so, Jesus walked on water. Whatever we have yet to do to live and walk with Christ, we do by faith, and walk on the water with Him, because we have no need to be in the sins of the waters in between the heavens where the demons are, and also they are in the second heaven.

The waters, repentance, and forgiveness, I know it says to walk on the waters, that is a part of His Sabbath. Not believing sin and giving up. Also though there is a time where God wants us to really be baptized, as baptism is eternal, and continual; and the waters aren't unclean because we are repenting and forgiving, and receiving, and loving.

Works are the evidence of faith? That is not what James is saying. He is saying to those people to show their works, because soon what happens is they don't love, and it is all about a good showing in the flesh. And our faith is the evidence of what we do not see in the physical.

Here is the Greek word for taken in 2 Thessalonians 2:7:
ginomai:
to become, i.e. to come into existence, begin to be, receive being
to become, i.e. to come to pass, happen
of events
to arise, appear in history, come upon the stage
of men appearing in public
to be made, finished
of miracles, to be performed, wrought
to become, be made

out is: ek
out of, from, by, away from

way is: mesos
middle
the midst
in the midst of, amongst

Sounds like the rapture to me.

I have a really cool study on the circle of heaven that my mentor has.

"Creation"
Lightning: when the conscience agrees with the imagination.
Eyes: to and fro (Power of the body)
Imagination: the makeup of the body. Also is 'current' electricity.
Health: to and fro of eyes 'adding' to the imagination= existence.

The makeup of this kinetic existence is lightning/health.
The conscience is the seat of both potential and kinetic existence (Past and present).
All of these dimensions envelop and are in each other-> infinite and definite existences/ realities.

The imagination is water, and air, and lightning in creation. And is 'current' electricity in rest.

Electricity is potential lightning= nothing which is meditated on at rest is vain.

Lightning is health= walking in kinetic and potential health.

The future is the imagination which is based upon the conscience. I have described the yod before as where time begins. And so the imagination is that place. That starting point. Though physical creation has not yet started. So the imagination and the yod is the future in regards to rest.

The conscience is a thought. Which is a seat. Good or bad. And decisions come from freedom (ability to change one's existence by 'creating' or morphing thoughts to replace or add to thoughts.)

Eyes are the myrrh of the conscience.

Lighting is to and fro, also thoughts replaced/added.

To and fro is sex.

As in meditation there is partial and complete contentment and conception. All partial conception and contentment leads to the complete conception. Like in sex from a look to the conception of the act.

The focus is the chosen seed (What I want).

The trinity brings creation.

The mind breaks up in three:
1. Mind: makeup/framework/process
Emotions: kinetic and potential ('current' electricity and also lightning with the hope of conception)
Feelings: The chosen seed, and the state of conception.

2. The mind itself: The nous, the partial
Subconscious: memories, communion, positioning of physical
Conscious: the movement of the physical with the hope of myrrh
Conscience: The state of jubilation

*(To and fro and meditation is between both of these trinities.)

(Sex topographically):
3. Humility: 'It is the Father's good pleasure to give the kingdom'�
Judgment: 'Isaiah 18's consider, meringue on the lemon'�
*(Like having sex and then still being in love.)
Mercy: Ability to have the kingdom brining completeness of the five knowledges; being okay with those realities: contentment

*Complete conception does not happen without all of these three.

1: being together
2: being individuals together
3: Being three definably
4: Being three together
5: Creating
6: Creation present here in this partial conception, this is rest, thankfulness
7: Perfection/completion in hope, in state of all things, actively enjoying the completeness of the partial conception
8: Having the work of one's hands and going on to complete conception (creating again)
9: Resting after joy with 8
10: total inheritance, all things including complete conception

*In the soul, the nephesh is both partial and complete conception of the total inheritance. Picture a snowball going down a hill. It starts and has partial conception. Then more is added to it; and it has complete conception. This is the personality in the motion of life.

There is the husband and the wife as the individuals who are three through God.

The wife is the pillar and the husband together with the wife is the womb. The wife is the bones and the husband is the flesh. Eve was into his innermost parts. Why talk about the bone and flesh if there is no wife/praise? Even as man and God. The wife is listed first as she encompasses a man. There is love when he encompasses her as she does. When this is then the two are the womb; and after the partial conception they are the thighs.

There is no Hebrew letter for the man as the lamed is the woman. Not even the qoph. Because it is about the bride. The reconciliation of the shape of the qoph is given in that the man is for the woman. Therefore God has stopped at nothing in revering marriage.

Fusion:
(1-3)3 meditations: (the trinity brings creation)
The memory (air)
Communing (water)
Positioning (Fire)
The to and fro unto partial conception

(4-7)4 meditations: (Being triune together, which is like the imagination of being all things triune)
The above three from the 3 meditations but with the doing added (the to and fro; adding and replacing thoughts).
This is that time of waiting; and also of renewal (Because of sin and still would be new without sin)
The to and fro in complete partial conception

(8-10) 5 meditations: (Creating what will be forever; because of the spirit and heart in Christ, as the imagination is true only with that; the 3 and 4 meditations are vain without Him; which still end of with this 5 meditation being forever, whether for good or for bad.)
Who: Thought adding replacement unto complete conception
What: Air, water, fire in past, present, and future, and all dimensions
When: Thoughts through freedom (also I heard that plasma is the electrons which are stimulated and contain all of the effects of our senses; any sense then is plasmic). Notice this intertwines with previous meditation
Why: that is the meditation
How: Loving sex, to and fro and it's framework (thoughts)-> Evolution (loving the framework more than the handiwork) is a fake.

6 meditations (This is the number of the limit of man elohim. Like 6 colors of the rainbow (Violet is a shade of purple).
The above 5 meditations plus:
Where: 1-3 heavens

'Corporate worship?'�
From Isaiah 18
1 Woe to the land shadowed with buzzing wings (locusts),
Which is beyond the rivers of Ethiopia,
2 Which sends ambassadors by sea,
Even in vessels of reed (light) on the waters (also the air), saying,

Go, swift messengers, to a nation tall and smooth of skin,
To a people terrible from their beginning onward,
A nation powerful and treading down (Don't tread on me),
Whose land the rivers divide (America). (Calling other's angels to ourselves)
3 All inhabitants of the world and dwellers on the earth:
When he lifts up a banner on the mountains, you see it;
And when he blows a trumpet, you hear it.
4 For so the LORD said to me,

I will take My rest,
And I will look from My dwelling place
Like clear heat in sunshine,
Like a cloud of dew in the heat of harvest.
5 For before the harvest, when the bud is perfect
And the sour grape is ripening in the flower,
He will both cut off the sprigs with pruning hooks
And take away and cut down the branches.
6 They will be left together for the mountain birds of prey (Evil spirits)
And for the beasts (ones possessed by evil) of the earth;
The birds of prey will summer on them,
And all the beasts of the earth will winter on them.
7 In that time a present will be brought to the LORD of hosts
From a people tall and smooth of skin,
And from a people terrible from their beginning onward,
A nation powerful and treading down,
Whose land the rivers divide'�
To the place of the name of the LORD of hosts,
To Mount Zion.

I would like to add some additional things which would profit any. But just like how Paul wrote about having no such custom regarding praying with one's head covered. It is the same in regards to anyone who may think simplistically. Because it is about the heart, not about following any rules. And in regards to the heart, one is seen for their love, not for their 'obedience' to any rule or law. But I think that all can profit reading these things, but knowing that this is not rules. Now I am going to speak plainly. Okay, with God, He knows who is saved, and who is not. Freewill and predestination is easy. It means that sin no matter what is slavery. And God chooses who are His. Which is predestination. And he chooses those whom He has foreknown. Whom He planned to save. Which means that they were always with Him. Now also then, the new birth means that God gives those people freewill. So I am going to go over some things which seem contradictory, but they are not. One has to be able to rightly divide the word of truth. And also to reconcile love, life, and truth. But with what I was talking about, about freewill and predestination, that means that there is a line on the ground. (Which may mean what Jesus drew in the dirt). So there are those who are going to make it and those who aren't. And those who aren't were never with Him- therefore it is impossible to lose salvation. I am going to talk about some things that really need to be viewed in context.

There should not be one word or thought that says that [I] can not do it. That 'I' can not make it. That 'I' am cut off. That 'I' am a dry tree. There should not be anyone who says 'I can't be perfect.' In the sense that when God is empowering me, I can do it. Therefore not being like how I described the unprofitable servant. And here is how: loving and praising conviction. And having integrity: believing what it says about you. And also walking though the seed has not completely died yet, walking contrary to hope (hope of the flesh, and by sight) and believing in Jesus. That is how Abraham walked. Walking as the seed is rotting, and having the full death as hope. Faith means having it now. Hope is in the future. And also as the seed rots, and one is walking there are deaths of the seed up until the whole death, unto what the hope is. Now one should be able to not forgive anyone. No one should say, "The LORD has utterly separated me from His people."

Isaiah 56:4-7
To the eunuchs who keep My Sabbaths,
And choose what pleases Me,
And hold fast My covenant,
5 Even to them I will give in My house
And within My walls a place and a name
Better than that of sons and daughters;
I will give them an everlasting name
That shall not be cut off.
6 ' Also the sons of the foreigner
Who join themselves to the LORD, to serve Him,
And to love the name of the LORD, to be His servants'
Everyone who keeps from defiling the Sabbath,
And holds fast My covenant'
7 Even them I will bring to My holy mountain,
And make them joyful in My house of prayer.
Their burnt offerings and their sacrifices
Will be accepted on My altar;
For My house shall be called a house of prayer for all nations.'�

The name that is better than sons and daughters, is being married. The Sabbath is about not walking by sight, or the flesh, or thinking that works are evidence of faith.

Going to the right or to the left or forward or backward is all wrong. Because wherever God is, that is where we should be. That is prudence. There should be no right or left wing.

There should be no confidence in the flesh, whatsoever. And no one should be judged by the flesh. It is the spiritual man who judges. And judging is according to the Spirit. The unprofitable servant is the one who hid the talent, not the one who struggled with sin. Therefore as I am perfect in Christ and have ten talents, or whether I am struggling with sin, and have five talents, but still worship God with a pure and clean conscience; I am not the unprofitable servant, unless I decide to not come to Him. And I don't mean in the context of not having some fleshly sin. But in having love, and the doctrine as it is in truth.

The doctrine of Baal is simplicity. Baal means 'lord.' You should be able to understand that Satan has a counterfeit first: complication. So now what: simplicity? No, wisdom. Where it says simple in the English it should say single, or pure, or genuine, in the Bible; when it has it as a good thing. Look at what God was saying in Ezekiel: the people were saying they were meat for the caldron. Which is like saying we can't get out of sinning because if we do, we will lose; and or then God won't save us, or He'll be mad at us for trying to be perfect, or it will come back on us. That was the sword they were afraid of.

Jezebel, the way it works is whoever has the most power wins. It is a false Christianity. Because that turns into everyone just starting at different points but gaining more. So she has the prophets of Baal have simplicity, and soon they are on her side; kind of like keeping your enemies close to you. Notice how the world is kind of like, you can't be perfect, and also consequences are not all that good- so let's stay lukewarm, because we are meat for the caldron, and the sword will get us if we leave.

Grace is not the freedom to sin and be okay with God. It is the free gift of the power of God by which we receive Him.

Many think having Jesus in their hearts is salvation. (Before anyone freaks out, hear me out, and also consider the attachment I am going to provide regarding some who I know have walked according to the heart, and the Spirit, and not the flesh.) It is not. That is why Paul wrote to the Hebrews. (By the way the Spirit told me it was Paul's letter). That is the talent! And having the Holy Spirit in us takes running our race, and entering into His rest. The doctrine of simplicity is Jezebel, and is not true. Some people believe that we can't have perfect sinless spirits, hearts, or souls, or they defame the inheritance by kind of saying, "Under the blood..." or "through Jesus though..." and really that doesn't bring glory to God. Do you know how God spoke to those in Ezekiel? They were saying that God forsook them. That is like if we were to say that it's simple and we can't be perfect like He says we can. Because our flesh is not perfect yet. Nowhere in the Bible does it say that we can't have perfect spirits, hearts, and souls: that is the Promise! By perfect I mean like how John meant it. Not that we take on oath or say we will never sin again. But that right now we have the power to not sin. Also again, in Ezekiel they were saying that "we are meat for the caldron." Which is like if we were to say that we can't be perfect right now because sin will get us, or God will be mad at us, or not save us, or it will come back on us. That is not God. They were not spared because of their sins. And that is all Jezebel. Because the doctrine of simplicity is the doctrine of Baal. Again, Baal means 'lord.' It is God without God. Because He has forsaken us and we can't do the right thing no matter what? God showed me what conviction is:~"If I were perfect that wouldn't have got me."~

Having the talent, raising the hand up in church, accepting Jesus is not enough. All must run their race, they must enter into His rest. Here is what I mean: that doing these things does not set anyone apart as if from accountability, and I do not mean from a good showing or works, but of the heart, and an eternal, constant baptism in love.

Paul said that he was free from the blood of all men because he did not refrain from speaking the whole counsel of God. So let's not puff each other up.

Do you know what his thorn was? Using his intellect to gain people. In Acts when they bowed down to him, and then also in 17 when he tried to do what I have been told is like a pep rally: "Get everyone to agree, and then slip in Jesus" that was wrong. And next he came to Corinth. Where he said he was in much fear and trembling. And that he knew nothing except Jesus and Him crucified. (It still says His life, some just want their consequences to go away, and their accountability. It is not enough to not do the bad, one has to do the good: all the way). Then in 2 Corinthians he talks about his revelations. But the thorn was there because he is not supposed to not have knowledge or revelations, but to work through the bad, so he can have and keep the good. 2 Peter says 'through the knowledge of Him.' That is so important. They got in trouble for that in Hosea. Now gnosis is the knowledge that Paul said puffed up, which also must be read in context where it is used, the Greek is not perfect. Now gnosis is the science of the Christian religion. And so many because of the translation cast off knowledge. And then they teach the science of the "Christian religion" in simplicity. Again, many places that the Bible says simple is a wrong translations, that should say genuine, or pure, or single. God is wise. Again the counterfeit came in and people took the left wing. Confusion and complication is not good, but neither is simplicity; wisdom is God. And that hidden wisdom is spoken to the mature, which is mysteries, revelation, things that it takes discipleship and accountability, and whole heartedness and faithfulness to God to comprehend. David had a heart that was completely loyal. Because he went through God's boot camp, which is to run the race. Benny Hinn talks about the three anointing's: the leper anointing, the priestly anointing, and the kingly anointing. Everyone has to run their race. The Spirit can be in someone, upon them.

I know this pastor who thinks he has this church and program from God. And since he thinks that, now he also think that anything that doesn't serve that is not from God.

Remember the thief on the cross. He said that he deserved to be up there. That is how to overcome being the brood of vipers. But he still entreated the LORD. Now also what happens through Jezebel is that because people recognize the sinful nature as who they are, they think that it really isn't sin. I mean that is going on in the spirit. That is what keeps people from completing their race and entering into His rest. They think they can just raise their hand up in church or ask Jesus to live in their hearts and they will go to heaven. To he who has much will be required. So they don't think they can fall away. And this sets the ground for the backwards Christianity, and works as evidence of faith, and legalism; and love turns into selfishness, but called love. That is what James wrote what did about works for. And the legalism comes from thinking that we can't follow the Holy Spirit wholly, or love wholly. Or not sin. Then what happens is corban. And then people reward for bloodline and works.

'Accountability'�
Now, it is not right that people can be hindered by others. Because that means then that we are not responsible or accountable. It is not supposed to be like that. In Ezekiel when it says that the fathers eat sour grapes and the children's teeth are set on edge, it is true, but then God provides the way out, and everyone themselves is accountable.

Without hope, which is the future which no one can see; no one can have faith. Which is in the now. If a person doesn't know what they are doing- that is not faith. Worshiping God as we don't know Him? And what is not of faith is sin.

The clear conscience relates to what I said about meditation.

1 Timothy 1:5
love from a pure heart, from a good conscience, and from sincere faith

From 1 Timothy 3:9
hold the mystery of the faith with a pure conscience.

2 Timothy 1:3
God, whom I serve with a pure conscience

2 Timothy 2:22
pursue righteousness, faith, love, peace with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.

Hebrews 10:22-23
draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water. 23 Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful.

Hebrews 9:14
the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered Himself without spot to God, cleanse your conscience from dead works to serve the living God

Hebrews 13:18-19
Pray for us; for we are confident that we have a good conscience, in all things desiring to live honorably. 19 But I especially urge you to do this, that I may be restored to you the sooner.


1 Peter 1:22-23
you have purified your souls in obeying the truth through the Spirit in sincere love of the brethren, love one another fervently with a pure heart, 23 having been born again, not of corruptible seed but incorruptible, through the word of God which lives and abides forever

1 Peter 3:21-22
There is also an antitype which now saves us'baptism (not the removal of the filth of the flesh, but the answer of a good conscience toward God), through the resurrection of Jesus Christ, 22 who has gone into heaven and is at the right hand of God, angels and authorities and powers having been made subject to Him.

Conscious
Mooda' (adjective): Clean conscience
Mooda'at (feminine adjective)
Ayeen, Dalet, Vav, Mem
Interpretation:
Psalm 1:1-3, 6
1 Blessed is the man
Who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly,
Nor stands in the path of sinners,
Nor sits in the seat of the scornful;
2 But his delight is in the law of the LORD,
And in His law he meditates day and night.
3 He shall be like a tree
Planted by the rivers of water,
That brings forth its fruit in its season,
Whose leaf also shall not wither;
And whatever he does shall prosper.
the LORD knows the way of the righteous

be-hakarah (adjective): awake
Heh, Resh, Kaf, Heh, Bet


Interpretation:
Ecclesiastes 5:1-7
1 Walk prudently when you go to the house of God; and draw near to hear rather than to give the sacrifice of fools, for they do not know that they do evil.
2 Do not be rash with your mouth,
And let not your heart utter anything hastily before God.
For God is in heaven, and you on earth;
Therefore let your words be few.
3 For a dream comes through much activity,
And a fool's voice is known by his many words.
4 When you make a vow to God, do not delay to pay it;
For He has no pleasure in fools.
Pay what you have vowed'
5 Better not to vow than to vow and not pay. 6 Do not let your mouth cause your flesh to sin, nor say before the messenger of God that it was an error. Why should God be angry at your excuse and destroy the work of your hands? 7 For in the multitude of dreams and many words there is also vanity. But fear God.

Subconscious
(position)
Matsaveem (noun mas/fem singular)
Matsavey (noun masc/fem construct)
Bet, Tsadde, Mem
Interpretation: 'If you are going to position yourself, look to the Rock from which you were hewn. If then your whole body is full of light, having no part dark, the whole body will be full of light, as when the bright shining of a lamp gives you light.'�

(vessel)
Keliy
Yod, Lamed, Kaf
Interpretation:
Romans 9:23
that He might make known the riches of His glory on the vessels of mercy, which He had prepared beforehand for glory

2 Timothy 2:20, 21
vessels of gold and silver

if anyone cleanses himself'� he will be a vessel for honor, sanctified and useful for the Master, prepared for every good work.

1 Peter 1:18, 19
you were.. redeemed'�with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot.

Contentment
svee'oot ratson (noun feminine)
Noon sofeet, Vav, Tsadde, Resh,- Tav, Vav, Ayeen, Yod, Bet, Sheen
Interpretation: 'Worship in the stillness of the LORD, He will not let you down, apply your mind to His stillness and He will give you understanding. If you continue searching for love, you will be made one with Christ.'�

Revelation
(Bewilder)
Lehad'heem
Mem sofeet, Yod, Heh, Resh, Heh, Lamed
Interpretation:
'I want to know You more'�
In the secret, In the quiet place
In the stillness You are there
In the secret, in the quiet hour
I wait only for You
Cause I want to know You more
I want to know You
I want to hear Your voice
I want to know You more
I want to touch You
I want to see Your face
I want to know You more
I am reaching for the highest goal
That I might receive the prize
Pressing onward, pushing every hindrance aside
Out of my way
Cause I want to know You more

Philippians 3:14, 8, 10
I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in Him

that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death

(awe)
Pachad: to be startled, to fear, make to shake, stand in awe
Resh, Khet, Peh
Interpretation: 'Only in God may one live.'�

Isaiah 66:2
on this one will I look:
On him who is poor and of a contrite spirit,
And who trembles at My word.

(reveal)
Galah: I think that this word is used to make the flesh jealous. Like a husband with a bride, like God with the Jews. And what happens is not that a husband cheats, but that he makes the bride's (whose spirit is perfect) flesh jealous, therefore the bride has power to overcome the 'complacency' or stagnancy of the sinful flesh; and have the seed die.
Heh, Lamed, Gimel
Interpretation:
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
1 To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:
2 A time to be born,
And a time to die;
A time to plant,
And a time to pluck what is planted;
3 A time to kill,
And a time to heal;
A time to break down,
And a time to build up;
4 A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;
5 A time to cast away stones,
And a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to gain,
And a time to lose;
A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;
7 A time to tear,
And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;
8 A time to love,
And a time to hate;
A time of war,
And a time of peace.

8 is the number for new beginnings. An interpretation of that may be that the darkness (something not yet revealed) did not include jealousy before Adam and Eve fell. But good things don't always have to be only to cover the bad, like only eating because of emptiness. Which means that we can overcome now. And also that the hope is that neither the specific sin, or it's condition can hinder.

Equity
Yashar: to be straight or even, to be made right, pleasant, prosperous, direct, fit, seem good, please, esteem, take the straight way, be upright.
Resh, Sheen, Yod
'It's not that we bring equity only because something is missing, but because God is continual, and patience is taking a step back and seeing if there is anything We want, and That (He is our patience) sustains'�

Yosher: the right
Resh, Sheen, Yod
'Even in all things, God is still continual, not that there is no rest, but everlasting life- the flesh loves death.'�

Yashawr: straight, convenient, just, meet
Resh, Sheen, Yod
'He sustains us by communication (He is a trinity)'�

Miyshor: a level, a plain, justice, even place
Resh, Vav, Sheen, Yod, Mem or
Resh, Sheen, Yod, Mem
'Whether the equity comes to overcome emptiness, or whether it is everlasting life, we can not know the work of God from beginning to end, apart from the gifts that He gives us.'�

Meyshar: evenness, agreement, sweetly
Resh, Sheen, Yod, Mem
'Now walking according to the faith and gift given to [us] meekness (obeying the voice of the LORD) will lead us to pleasure.'�

Nekach: to be straightforward
Khet, Kaf, Noon
'No one by themselves has any good'�

Nakoach: correct, integrity
Khet, Kaf, Noon
'Prepare the way'�

Nekochah (feminine of Nakoach): a truth
Heh, Khet, Kaf, Noon
'Love all things'� (truth)

A while ago, it came to me, that the way to fight laziness is rest.

In the battle of Ai, Joshua went out to the valley the night before the battle. That is repentance, preparing the way. And also the night shows something not yet revealed, the victory.

Now according to Romans 7 it is almost impossible by sight and the flesh to beat sin in anything. That really led to the thinking about being meat in the caldron. But there is a way out. I mean a testimony which also helps. Tell the sin that you are coming to get it. Like running at Ai. Then give the flesh over to death. With that word of faith in the heart. Run away. The evil thinks it is going to win, it manifests. When demons or evil spirits manifest, they lose power, they would rather be in the dark. All things that manifest are made manifest by the light. And then Psalm 92, cut it out of the way. And then I find that remembering that God is love, I not only work on taking the evil out, but fill the room; unlike the unclean spirit departing parable. Usually I find that the reason evil is there is because the good has not come forth. So while I may be prideful, it is sin trying to work on my humility. Also spirits through Jezebel and the doctrine of Baal and simplicity wreak havoc this way. Because then it is like a mutiny for those who walk by sight. In Isaiah 8 it says to not say 'a conspiracy.' So what happens once people get religious is that they start to call everything a conspiracy that jeopardizes their peace and safety (false). And then they give the ultimatum. Which is like "Physician, heal yourself." Religious people get used by Jezebel. And Laodicea starts to turn into those people who everyone disagrees with. I have heard that if two or three agree, that doesn't make it God. That is what is happening in the world. It is turning corporate. And that is opposite of what Paul was doing, and Jesus. And then comes in the simplicity: either we don't know why we don't see or have more of the Spirit; or it was all for the early church. Really in taking a look at that: if we don't have tongues or apostles, what are we doing with pastors?

'Walking in power'�
Something that greatly helps me is remembering that darkness, for those who walk by faith, is as a non-existent thing.

Adam was cursed to work by the sweat of his own brow. And Jesus was made a curse for us.

No one should be trying to earn anything. In Isaiah God is serious about the Sabbath, and it encompasses more than just thinking that our sins were put on Jesus. What happened is that God, to people, turned into 'that is when I am spiritual.' And then work turned into 'what [I] do.' That is corban.

What I explained about chattah and gentiles: what happens is that there comes a point where the sinful condition starts to work together with the offense, and then it is impossible by sight to work on either.

The opposition
First I need to talk about these perilous times. I have described Jezebel before as dulling down the church. Now also with what is written about the perilous times, it is not so much that the world is really messing up. Because they aren't even the sour grape. They don't even claim to be of the vine. But the perilous times encompasses the position of the church in the world. What it means is that through the heresies and also the outworking of sin it has come that there is no fellowship or any way in which for those who want His promise and would so much walk in perfection; there is no where to go. Because the perilousness is all around. And much of this has come because of Isaiah 18. I don't say this to condemn, but I am pointing out the condition and the correct diagnosis. Does this mean that those who are in the world and aren't and can't find or be in any kind of position to not be of the world are not saved? No! Because it is about the heart, and also that is what carrying the cross is! Remember the Psalm which talks about being sheep led for the slaughter. And these new creations; their flesh is becoming sin. And their inward man is being renewed day to day. The falling away in 2 Thessalonians means falling away from the perilous times. Both encompassing the heresies, and also being in the world and having our flesh be made sin as we carry our cross. And also it should be remembered that the gates of hell can not prevail against the church. And Peter, little rock, holds the testimony that no matter what happens His people can always be fully restored, just as Peter was at the end of the gospel of John.

Jezebel usually first uses control (or a spirit of control once someone submits). Because control is what people do when they are afraid. And also it is the easiest thing to be given over to. Notice that the fruit of self-control is number nine (By the way I believe the tenth fruit, and nine does symbolize incompletion, to be everlasting life [the lost coin]). People give themselves over to it because it is the lesser evil. Which is like, "Why did you submit to it?" What happens with people is that the lesser evil, which usually is simplicity, comes in because God doesn't condemn right? Forgetting that those whom Jesus prayed for saying, "Father forgive them for they know not what they do" can only be received by being saved. Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. And Romans five shows how grace is by faith, and what faith is it to glory in shame, and to be happy for lack of knowledge? That is how most people worship God. Like what I don't know about God is what I know, and that is right because here am I on earth, and He is in heaven. It's a fake! One time Satan did this thing with me where he pointed to God, and said that is God. Well, do you see what I mean? All the while he wanted to slip something in. I have heard Satan being described as a magic trick. Gets you looking in one direction, and then poof! I