Isn't it interesting how when you make a friend, they always promise to be in your life forever? How we always think that friendship will last beyond all else? Why is it that in our years of enlightenment and wisdom, we haven't figured out yet that forever is an illusion of human imagination? One would think that by now, with as many people as have come in and out of people's lives, we would all have figured out not to believe people when they promise to love you or be your friend. I try to be the best friend I can be to all of my friends. When I say that I will always be there for someone, I mean it. And when they call me to solve an issue or handle drama, I drop everything and do what I can for them. Unfortunately, I am an original. The rest of the world does not think the way I do. Im not sure if this is a good thing or not....but, either way, I am the only me there is. I have a friend who through everything they have done to me, all of the drama and pain that this person has caused me, I am still there for them. I still drop everything for them and give into their every wish and need. Each time I do this, I end up wondering why I waste my time. When I need this person, they are not there for me. When I try to help this person, they yell at me and get angry. This person owes me more than I can name, yet I still drop everything to try and make their world a better place. I actually am saddened by the idea that our friendship will soon be completley over and I will have no contact with this person anymore. Shouldn't I be glad? Shouldn't I be rejoicing the fact that they will no longer have the ability to make me feel like a worthless object anymore? Unfortunately, I can't forget the person that this friend used to be and the friendship we used to have. I can't forget the way it felt when we first became friends and this person actually cared about me just as much as I did about them. Once upon a time, this friend gave me reason to feel special and important in the world. I know that that person is still inside the empty shell that I know now. Something tells me that I should just walk away from this friendship and leave the bad times behind. But, Im not sure I know how to do that. I am such an emotional person that I can't stand to walk away from anyone. I hate to lose friends, whether they act like friends to me or not. I know that this rant sounds really pathetic and self pitious, but at least I got it off my chest. Things will work out, we will either remain friends or not, and life goes on. Thanks for listening.

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