Sometimes I wish that cold water was accessible to me...every now and then it's that splash of reality that one needs...here and there it's that splash that helps to clear the mind...god knows I need it various times in one day...it comes with being an emotional creature whose mood swings are like a roller coaster ride...yeap, I'm in dire need of some cold water to cool my thirst...my thirst for self understanding.
Self understanding? Hm, I think I may have just created a new phrase. Anyway it is an interesting concept...because when do you fully come to understand yourself or is that even possible? It's pretty damn frustrating at times because I think I know myself pretty well, but then I have to go and prove myself wrong. I blame high expectations...those are the devil, I tell you, the devil...expectations...I know them well...I have impossible expectations for myself...maybe that's why I'm not the happiest person? Ha!
Even so, I will argue that people should have expectations or standards. I've come to the sudden realization that I've built myself into a box. I don't understand it though...I treat others like how I want to be treated...is that too much to ask? Too difficult to understand? Personally, I believe that if everyone would live by that the world would be a much more peaceful place.
Now do not get it twisted...I do not do things, or help others because I expect something in return. If it happens, it happens...but nothing in life is without strings...nothing. Trust me. I once tried to find something in life that came without attachment, expectations and what not...and it just does not exist. Life itself is full of strings...strings that constantly wind themselves between the legs and trip you up. At times it seems like an ocean of endless strings and if you're lucky enough maybe, just maybe you'll be holding the end of one.

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