I won't fault you, because you never knew what you had

Claiming to be young and dumb, but i still needed a dad

So what about my mother, she was still young too

But she stepped up to the plate, played mom and stood in
as dad for you

Wish you could have seen me, I held tears in my eyes

Every time my sister left with her dads family, I'd break down and cry

Standing on the wall with my head held low

I use to cry myself to sleep, because I always wanted to go

Always blamed myself, thought I was the reason you weren't there

but I'm 18 now, and I realized you just don't care

Two times we met, and you blamed that all on my mom

You only live an hour and a half away, so tell me how was that her fault

So many broken promises, I learned not to get my hopes up high

Because you continously let me down, and break my heart every time

But what i can't understand is how you have other kids
and you take out time for them, but for me you never did

You missed my big day, I graduated one of the smartest in my class

And it really hurt me, when you weren't there to see that

Your so busy with your new life, that you made excuses
why you couldn't come

NO letter, NO phone call, NO gifts not even one

But you do have time to take care of kids that aren't even yours

HELL WHAT ABOUT ME, DAMMIT I AM YOURS

I can't believe I'm crying, while i'm writing this

My tears burn through the paper, and I feel like I can't finish this

I'm getting all choked up rereading this again, Im crying harder now

And I'm feeling like I did back then

I try so hard not to hate you, but it hurts so bad

All my emotions are building up, and bringing old memories back

Everyones says I look just like you, and you don't know how much I resent that

I hate to even look at myself in the mirror, because I see you staring back

I wish you could read this, but I doubt that you would

If you could go back, I doubt that you would

Yes I love you because that's what i'm suppose to do

But I hate to forgive you, but I know that I have too

They say a little girl....... who loves her daddy so

Is a "Daddy's Girl"......... but I guess we'll never know....

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