Why does desire evade me?
Rarely have I been found as its object;
Never as its product,
Its Masterpiece.

I justify
Rationalize
Time after
Time time time

But the knowledge of self never will abandon me
To grips of irrationality

I’m narcissistic, self-absorbed;
My standards are too high,
My stereotype too low
Again, this whole thing is about me –
Just more proof of what I already know:

I have yet to meet the one I love.

Even all the times – the few-
I thought I knew hardly matter
Except as memories of
Distinct feeling
Frustration
Passion
Locked and sealed away

I’m pessimistic, I’m cynical;
With an ideal too complex, and
A condition too simple
The thing so many deny themselves
To appear only humble

I will know it when I find him
I will know
This is how I know:

The man I love will want me
And not withhold himself from me
He will deserve me.
And he will know it.

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