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Diamond in the rough

This is the story of a Diamond in the rough.
Born in the streets, guttah bitch ; glitter shit.
F*ck what they said, they didn’t know her.
Did they know her struggles ?
What she went through ?
What she is ?
Naw Eff that . . They don`t !


Dear Diary,

Guess who? Yea me, Diamond. I know this is awkward. Who tells their story backwards? Well that’s gonna have to be me. I want whoever picks this up, maybe in a few years or if I’m lucky enough, when I’m older, to read this and understand my struggles, my pain. It started like this; I was born in a subway train station…

The young woman walked out of the subway station bathroom, bundling something in a coat. No one paid her any attention as she ascended up the stairs and into the cold, rainy streets. The rain hit her dried up, old skin. All those years of drug abuse got to her. She once upon a time was a beautiful, young girl full of life. But that was the past, and she regretted it each day. After walking for awhile, the rain had died down. She went into an alley, and placed the baby inside a tipped over box, still bundled in her coat. She stared at the baby, and felt disgusted by it. She closed her eyes, and fell asleep.

The next morning, she woke up and walked to an apartment building with the baby in her hand. The baby was constantly crying, and she didn’t know what to do with it. Maybe it was hungry? She walked into the building, and took the dirty elevator up to the second floor, where she knocked on an apartment door. She waited a few seconds, before a tall male with; a goatee opened the door.

“I hope you came here, to give me my damn money!” He stated, not even fully opening the door for her. He was clearly tired of her, and her lies. She had an excuse for every damn thing.

“I have the money, but-” “I don’t want to hear no buts. Just hand me my money and I’ll open up the place.”

She sucked her teeth and looked through her dirty jean pockets and took out 60 dollars, in 10’s; then handed it to him. He counted it and sucked his teeth.
“You owe me 80 dollars.” “Well that’s all I have. Please, just let me go in there. I have a baby and everything. I swear, I’ma give you you’re 20 real soon. Soon as I can make the money, you’ll get it I promise.” He rolled his eyes at her excuse.

But, had sympathy enough for the baby. He sighed, “Hold up” He went back inside his apartment and came back outside.

They went up to the 4th floor, and he opened up her apartment. She thanked him, continuously and went in. The apartment looked empty and dirty. On the counter sat 2 small dirty pots and a few paper plates. She wasn’t happy with where she lived, but she was glad she at least had a place to stay. She went and placed the baby on her old, loveseat penetrated with holes.

The baby’s crying continued and it started irking her. She bit her crusty bottom lip and thought of what to do. She walked to the fridge and opened it, to find a half-empty bottle of milk. She opened it to release, a disgusting stench; it was spoiled.

“Ughh. Shut the hell up already, what the fuck do you expect me to do?” She asked the baby, who she knew couldn’t respond to her. She was getting fed up, so she decided to ask the neighbor for help. Her neighbor was a young high school graduate, who attended college and lived with her boyfriend.

She made her way across the hall and knocked on the door. The sound of loud rap music could be heard behind closed doors. The door opened, to reveal the young girl. “What you want now? I ain’t got money for your ass, so forget that shit.” She said, knowing the deal. It’s either, she wanted money or she was high. “Naw, I really need your help, seriously. I just had my baby, and she’s crying. She needs something to eat, and I have no milk, see?” She rose up the bottle of milk to the girls face, so she could see her evidence. The girl flinched, soon as the smell hit up her nose.

“Aight, hold up.” She closed the door and returned a few seconds later with an empty bottle full of milk. “This should last about a day. She’s only a newborn, they don’t eat much. And um, you should try cleaning up a little; I mean with the baby around and all.” The girl suggested, with a frown on her face.

She took the bottle and smiled fakely. “Thank you so much.” She returned back to her apartment to discover a screaming baby. She hurriedly, searched the cabinets for something to place the milk into, to feed the baby. She found a dirty straw, and rinsed it out with water, and stuck it in the bottle. She approached the baby and picked it up and started feeding her. When she was full, she placed her down on the couch and she immediately fell asleep.

She couldn’t think of what to do next, with the baby. She made her way to her bedroom and closed the door behind her. She started searching all over the room, then finally picked up her mattress, to reveal a small bag full of heroin. She took out its contents and poured it on the floor, she separated it evenly then, took a deep breath and sniffed it all in. Her nose burned, and the instant feeling of dizziness came to mind. She fell back on her bed, and soon went into a deep sleep.

So diary, do you understand how I came to be? Oh this is just the beginning, how about my first sexual experience? Brace yourself.

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