The time clock of my life beat slower today,
As if it was begging for more minutes in an hour.
I kept my thoughts close to a resolution,
Trying to keep all I could in my own desperate power.

I wondered how long it would take me to realize,
The intensity of my thoughts and my feelings.
I began to see that pathway to happiness open,
Clearly I saw it, yet I lay silent, staring at my ceiling.

Opening my mind to all the imminent possibilities,
Of overcoming my struggles and life’s overpowering grasp.
For I knew the fate of me would come quickly,
If I did not change all this blank time and it’s lapse.

Taking myself, and creating order
Has become my goal, and my one and only motivation.
Taking the outsiders, and choosing their importance,
Will deliver me out of all the unavoidable temptation.

Will I choose to love, or to separate myself?
Knowing the whole time, I can’t live without certain individuals.
Promising my soul more time to contemplate my fate,
All the while, taking care of all the residuals.

I believe in self-affliction, yet that is not my sickness.
My predicament is a bit more extreme.
Mending my lifestyle to help others is a natural choice.
To get better, I must change the entire scene.

This rapid loss of time concerns me.
I must act on my determined thoughts.
I must live, and love, and understand,
Instead of being caught in this net of sorrow and loss.

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