Searching for who I am
Looking all possible places
Finding myself temporarily
Never lasting, searching again

Names, bodies, concepts
Actions, behaviors, belief-based identities
Emotions, opinions, “indefinable”, “within”
Sex, relationships, and spiritual activities

Turns out.. 'not knowing' isn't the problem!!
It's the search itself that hides it
I must be out there somewhere though, right?
The pain and agony of never finding

Not content with a 'non-answer'
How can that take away my fear?
Or fulfill all of my desires, my cravings
The completion that felt so near!

A DEFINABLE sense of identity
That's what the ego (mind) “gives”
Thus beginning its never ending addiction
To find one and hold onto 'it'

I have no real explanation
Though I say this, without hesitation
Not belief, but realization (ha ha!)
The ego, was NEVER my true location!


May 25, 2008

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