I’m afraid
Yes, of course I’m afraid
I can’t always live in the now.
Afraid of the hurt of goodbye
It hurts too much for me
To accept Hello
I don’t know if I could play that game again

To tell the truth
Any more rejection
Would kill me inside
And if I’m dead inside,
Why on earth would I
Want the rest of me
To be alive?

You offered your kindness
I know,
I needed comfort
I wanted to take your offer of making me smile
But, bad timing for your cares
You have you own cross to bear
And didn’t see mine.

I am needy,
Far too vulnerable and needy I know
It scares the best of them away
Every time.
But I only ask for a hug
A loving hug, that’s all

But yes, you can see
There it is, as I said before
I always find a positive side:
Without this pain
After all…
I wouldn’t find these words,
And I would never write!

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