i throw your toothbrush to the side away from mine

this pleases me

it's a step

like wearing my nightgown tonight instead of sleeping naked

in the direction of separation

i can't predict when the calamity will come

never know when I'll find you creeping amongst the slouching bushes

nibbling crumbs of your insanity

your love-starved childhood

hansel

gretel

your need for your steed you mount with increasing sickening regularity

I throw away the porno mag hidden under the cookie sheet

and I adjust the straps of the bra you stole along with my most delicate panties

so delicate i dare not touch you

the dreams you lied to me about have faded along with your charm

your life of the party

and tonight when you tired but still eager to maim

shuffled off to retire on the spare day bed

my epiphany came in a splurge of anger

cleaning your kitchen mess more crumbs

i gave in caved in kicked in the door to what we had

GOODBYE i said knowing it wasn't

SOON i said knowing it wouldn't be

i'll liberate myself one of these nights

i'll wake from the dream i can't see your face in

and i won't reach for you for your shoulders your sleepy hair

and that will be it for your unintentional reign of terror