I loved your smile
the way you laughed
I loved your spirit
and how my memories
will forever last
I loved you so
but you dont love me
and you probably never will
thats why I sit here
ingesting these pills.

you where the free space
between our fire fight,
the sun on the horizon.
you where my happy ending
Though I loved you so
you dont love me
and you probably never will
thats why I sit here
chocking on these pills.

do you hear me?
can you see me?
you say you do
but you dont understand
the words I say are not that grand
I speak the truth and nothing more
like a harsh winters breath
that chills you to the core
feel my words from the inside
let them criple your lungs,
not for too long...
just long enough to let you know
I am here, and I have something to say
I love you know and I love you always
even though you dont love me
and probably never will
that is why I lay here blue
from all of these pills

some say I was depressed
some say selfish
though I wasnt a genius
I will tell you this
I took these pills not for me
you see,
I took these pills to make room
for all of the clarity.
when life becomes to hazy
and you just cant see
theres nothing like death to
bring serenity.

there is no more love
there is no more hate
there is no more time
that I fear I shall waste
I know you dont understand me
and you probably never will
That is why I sit here
that is why I take these pills

if one day you find me
you'll know the reasons why
so save all your condolences
and please try not to cry
I did this for a reason
we all have an ending
we're all destined to die.
you probably dont understand me
and I doubt you ever will
thats why you are here
breathing still
I am forever gone
taken by these pills

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