I'm sick of trying to be something
we're not.
This isn't the fairytale relationship
I hoped it would be.
I tried to rationalize why I'm still with you,
and in the end, I shouldn't have to do that.
I should want to be with you,
not come up with reasons why I should stay.
There are many reasons why I stay, but
what it boils down to is
it isn't because I love you.
As blunt as it is,
it's true.
We can keep playing these childish mind games,
because in the end we are only playing ourselves.
We need to grow up, and move on.
We've been together so long, and
now we are used to each other.
If we break up it will feel foreign,
and I know this, but
this is something that has to happen.
And it will happen, either now, or
if we waste time, later in life.
It's hard to say goodbye to something'
we invested so much in, but
in the end it's what's meant to be
because we are not meant to be.
I'm sick of everyone thinking we have the best relationship,
and that I have to perfect boyfriend,
becuase it's not true.
I'm sick of living a lie.

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